I’ve always felt different or apart from everyone like I don’t quite fit into the world. I have all these horrible feelings and thoughts that are slowly making me feel distorted, angry and fed up. I just don’t see why life is so hard when all you just do is die. I can’t function properly anymore and and when I do I feel good for maybe a week and then I’ll be sitting there watching tv, reading a book, in work or talking to someone and click everything around me fades and I just feel like the whole world has slowed lost its colour and all I want to do is hide under my bed covers and never come out. I’m describing how I’m feeling but it’s not even coming close to comparing it. I just so fed up of all this mixed sadness, tiredness, numbness and anger.