I have often said throughout my life that I feel like I don't matter. It seems that everyone around me (family, friends, co-workers) all matter to me but that feeling isn't mutual. I try to go above and beyond in everything I do. I try to be everything everyone wants or needs me to be. It hurts when you realize that you don't matter to them. That when they have drained all that you are they will toss your shell away. Your so called friends can't make an hour of time for you after 2 years away. Your co-workers will take and take and set expectations on you to help their success but when it's your turn they turn their backs to you. People just expect you to catch them if they fall or let them push you down so they can have the win. Why don't I matter to anyone when so many matter to me?