It's never gonna change

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The fact that I could be someone better idk what is even better I just see people enjoying life like yeah not enjoying entirely they're dealing with their own shit and stuff but it just looks like they're at least living. I don't feel like I've lived up to my life until now IK it makes no sense it just feels that everytime I try to be something better I always end up the same. I hook up to some things obsessively and after a while they start to make less sense. Like rn I've got my physics final tomorrow and I can't study cause I feel like a loser who's life isn't gonna get ever exciting or worth living for cause I don't see a point anymore. I'm not suicidal bug I just get these suicidal ideation sometimes it's just idk. I feel like just disappearing fr like rn