Online school, real school- i can't handle it. And i have to be the good kid, the one that doesn't give my mom anxiety. I want to tell her that if i self studied my whole life, i'd get a lot farther. But she wouldn't believe me. I'm sure she'd just tell me, "your anxiety isn't going to change you know"
And then the cycle would continue, i'd have mental break downs in front of everyone and then anger the teachers through my depressive episodes. Which usually involve me trying to choke myself..oh jzz