everyone says jealousy is a bad trait. i am feeling this for the majority of my life. i get jealous when people are closer to each other than me, although maybe that comes from bigger problems. i get jealous when someone gets something or someone i wanted, or gets to it first. i get jealous when i meet people who have not suffered as i have, because its not fair right? its never fair. i get jealous when i see people wearing a beaming smile with their friends that they didn't have to force onto their face. i get jealous when i see people getting treated the way i want to be treated. i want that feeling they have, its only logical to be jealous right? i get jealous when someone cares about someone in their life, why won't they care about me that way? the only thing that i know for sure is jealousy. ruins. everything.