i dont know what to do. ive never had the thoughts of death and being worthless circulate my mind so much. its been a while since ive felt this down. ive cried 3 different times today from messing up things with people i believe i love and care about. i just hate it here so much. nobodys gonna ever understand my situation im in, but i feel so lost and hopeless. theres nowhere for me to go. i dont know if i can push myself to go through the year. anybody struggling, i love you, but i dont think this is for me. this was my last attempt because i cant possibly talk to anybody else about it, so why not anonymously write it to the internet? everybody has their own problems, why bother messing it up.