!!! TW: 5u1c1d3, 53lf h4rm, dru95, 4lc0h0l, tr4um4 !!!I'm constantly misjudged. Everyone always expects too much from me, or they expect the worst from me. I'm never seen for ME, because I've been given labels based off of things that I can't control.Where to begin? I'm a gifted kid. That should tell you a lot already. I'm overestimated in school, to say the least. Just because I'm smart, I'm expected to get good grades. It doesn't matter how unclear the teachers are, or how difficult assignments are, because "if other kids in your class can get straight A's, you should be able to, also!" I excel in Language Arts, especially reading comprehension. My parents, as well as the staff at my school, refuse to let me transfer out of an advanced math class, simply because I took advanced math in Middle School. This is after explaining that I was placed in an honors course I did not want to take (taking Algebra 2 as a freshman, instead of Advanced English), and after explaining that I don't understand what is being taught in the class. I finished the semester with an F in that class, and they still refuse to let me transfer out because "I just need to apply myself more." This is just the school portion of my life.My parents, especially my mom, have had such an awful effect on my mental health that I have made many decisions that most people would regret, but I don't. I will list the specifics in italics after the bolded portion of this paragraph, but please look over the trigger warning in the beginning before continuing. Skip to the next paragraph if you find any of the things listed in the trigger warning are triggering for you. I tried to commit suicide in 1st, 2nd, and 8th grade. After my attempt in 8th grade, they found out, and took them 2 MONTHS to decide to take me to therapy. After 3 visits, they thought I was mentally stable enough to stop going. I have taken part in many different kinds of self harm. I have also tried drugs & alcohol before as a way of coping with trauma.My parents make me go to their church, and force their religion on me despite my best efforts to convince them that I do not want to be part of it. They are against basically everything I am, and they don't listen to anything I say to them. They insult my interests, and refuse to try to understand my point of view on anything if it's different than their point of view. They are VERY strong in the Mormon religion, and I am a transgender person who is omni (omni is the attraction to ALL genders, but most omni people have a preference), and I don't believe in their God. They still try to force me into their religion, even though my two older siblings were allowed to stop going to their church as soon as they said they didn't want to. Their reasons weren't like mine, either. Their reasons were "I just don't have any friends at church." and "Right now, my basketball games are my priorities. Not church."They have an obvious bias for my older siblings. I also have a younger brother who is EVEN MORE of an exception to their "rules". He's nine, and if he wants to stay home from church and throw a tantrum, he not only gets to, he's REWARDED for being so "strong willed". Oh, well that's just PART of my life, but of course I'm not even going to start on the amount of *UNDIAGNOSED* mental health disorders I probably have...Thanks for reading my rant, I guess!