I really want to kill myself right now, my friend keep yelling at me for the types of jokes i make (i make a lot of sex jokes and stuff like that), and i was joking to day about bell delphine's videos and jokingly ask a kid (i didn't know he was 10, im 15) and i guess he yelled at my friend about it and then he yelled at me for it. Know he's over here at my place now hes not talking to me, its making my really depressed because hes my only friend that im close with. And stuff with that keeps happening. Hes seems like he only talks to me when he has to or when his other friends cant talk or hang out. I now know this is something little and i shouldn't get so but hurt because of it, but i never had someone this close and now it feels like hes throwing me to the side, i feel alone again and its hurting right now. I dont want to feel alone again. It doesn't help i get super jealous over nothing and pissed at people he talks to but i dont let it show, i know this isn't good but i never really had a friend. As of right now im alone in my room crying, having one of Philza's videos playing, its cold and im hunger. Thats just one of the things thats going on.