Hey, I've only bottled up most of my emotions during my short life. Mostly because I was afraid. I've grown up with a strict parent who is what I'd call very toxic. I mostly do well in school, but when one of my grades went down, she took everything I cherished away from me. When I try to explain myself, it's titled as 'talking back' to the point where I don't even know what that means anymore. I get hit when it happens. I tell myself in my head to suck it up, but I know I never will. It happened so often to the point where I just didn't show emotion or cared anymore. Well, now I have no phone for the rest of my life under her household and no privileges! No other activities either! Great, right? She took me out of everything and cancelled everything I was in. So now, I basically have no life because one of my grades went down. She expects me to be this perfect child who makes no mistakes. I will never be her.