She ended the relationship to love herself. Legitimately, shes always had problems and moving away for college made some of them worse, and apparently theres nothing i can do to fix it. There isnt a single thing i can say to convince her that i can help. I think thats the hardest part. She comes back in 7 weeks, and we get to talk then, but its no contact rn. She has a reason to not talk to me, (because she needs time alone) but she didnt hurt me, so all i want to do is talk to her. I cant move on. I want her to be the one, i want to marry her. When i think of the future, shes in it. I want to keep on hoping that she will come back in November and be better and want a relationship, but i cant hold onto that hope, because if she comes back and i have high expectations, i could just get crushed again. I will change myself for her. I will sacrifice my own self interest if it means we can be together and she can be happy with me. She left me to help with her mental health, but im slipping into the position she was in. Hopelessness. Helplessness. Despair. Dread.