I broke up with my old girlfriend a few years ago after a 6 year relationship we had since we were teenagers.
After breaking up, I decided to have fun instead of searching for a monogamous relationship. After some time, I came to a conclusion that sex can and is a trap, instead of pleasure.
Once I met a woman I'm with now, I still struggled to be loyal. I cheated on her twice and came to a conclusion this must end, now. The difficult part is, that the intercourses I had never satisfied me. It was just the adrenaline rush that made me do it. I deleted all the sites I used to speak to other woman and went looking for help.
For quite some time there was a fear in me knowing that I'm just a liar. Simple as that. I know what I done and it's time to face the problems.
This confession is my start to a better, trustworthy life.