Its so exhausting trying to reach the standard of parents. The constant comparison and bullshit. I didn't ask to be born, so therefore, why should my parents have such high expectations of me? I don't want to live but i don't wanna die either. Because after everything you both have put me through, i still love you and i know you mean well. Why does there need to be so many struggles in life? What really is the purpose of life? Someone is born, raised and has to try to find a good career path/occupation/job to survive. The more money have, the better life is (in some cases). You'll maybe find love, arranged marriage, dk. But what is a person supposed to do, when they don't want to finish the course. What if that person wants to die but he/she doesn't want other people grieving over them and going to he funeral saying how much they love that person. That's what i wanted to hear when i still had hopes in life. That's the love i wanted to be expressed, not said. Fake friends, somewhat fake family and unrealistic expectations. Where is one supposed to go in live if he/she has lost hope in "life". To date it back, why was earth created? Why was "life" just "life". why do humans only use 10% of their brain capacity? Why not have more control over the brain, to be smarter and understand what life is? Understand the motive behind people's actions. What happens to people after they die? Do they just, vanish so to speak, or are souls reincarnated? Is suicide really a sin or is that just said so that people fear that if they actually committed suicide, they would suffer in the "after-life"? What really is life?