i am a christian woman... well... i trY to be. the bible says not to divOrce. i met my hUsband when i was not a chRistian... the more i study the bible and the more my belieFs change the fArther away i feel from him. the Closer i feel to this othEr man who has been helping me learn about God. i am so ashamed of myself. this Godly man would never be with someone like me and it hurts my heart to think that some day he will be with someone that is not me. i feel like i am drowning. i can't leave my husband because of God and i can't be with this other man because of God... because of my life choices and repercussions. i chose my life too fast and now i have to deal with it.