So i'm a muslim woman and i've been very religous up to now. Ive done a lot of praying and small self sacrifices for my religion. I feel like its opression as ive been born into it and its not my choice. Ive been wondering why i'm not being rewarded in life no matter how hard i try. My parents used to say that do good and god will reward you in life. Ive been doing good and people start stepping all over me and treating me like shit, so does my life. Does god even exist? I gave up my love life, i gave up having fun at the age of twelve cause having your period apparently means youre a woman so you have to make sure you complete five prayers a day (from 5am) or get abused, and women can have fun and play or have any representation in the islsmic and arabic world. I've been forced to wear a scarf from such a young age that now i dont bother all the sweat and burn marks from it. I feel opressed, i wanna convert to atheisim but that means i get killed cus its against our religion. Tbh i would rather die than live like this. What do you think??
ALSO WHY TF IS CHILD ABUSE TOTALLY ACCEPTABLE TO MUSLIMS I DONT WANT MY CHILDREN TO LIVE THEIR LIFE BEING ABUSED BY THEIR FATHER