Why am I even here? I live in a household that's full of toxicity and I'm the maid I have to clean every second of the day and I'm the only 18 year old here everyone's grown and if I dare put up any resistance I hear how ungrateful I am how disrespectful how I don't pay Bills and I just live here today I my birthday no one even cared there's no food in the house and they came home with nothing to eat I'm still in high school I don't work I have no money so I couldn't have gotten myself anything my friends also forgot I suppose cause it almost tomorrow and I've heard nothing from them I am unappreciated by anyone I'm not loved I try to love myself but it's hard I hate myself I hate life I hate everything I just want to leave not life itself but here

Why am I even here? I live in a household that's full of toxicity and I'm the maid I have to clean every second of the day and I'm the only 18 year old here everyone's grown and if I dare put up any resistance I hear how ungrateful I am how disrespectful how I don't pay Bills and I just live here today I my birthday no one even cared there's no food in the house and they came home with nothing to eat I'm still in high school I don't work I have no money so I couldn't have gotten myself anything my friends also forgot I suppose cause it almost tomorrow and I've heard nothing from them I am unappreciated by anyone I'm not loved I try to love myself but it's hard I hate myself I hate life I hate everything I just want to leave not life itself but here

Theres 1.5 Hrs left (where I am EDT) of your birthday and looky here , she's a Scorpio..&nbsp;"Scorpios value intelligence in their significant others.&nbsp;You gotta be smart to hang with a Scorpio."...Is THAT SO.....LOL. I kinda knew this , cause a young lady (old now...LOL) I knew in NM was THAT and Ill just bet your quick witted, good w/ ppls probs, like her. Gosh, honestly, If I knew where ya were, Id come over and get ya and take ya out for a quick bite. Vans still fulla music gear from earlier but Id move the gtr amp and let ya sit up front..LOL (dont do that for just anybody....LOL). I surely hope ya get some belated birthday wishes from those ya know. So many ppl are so down right now w/covid effectin every facet of life and not operatin on all cylinders right now. (like my poor ole van..LOL) and I see it on FB pages of birthdays. Only bout 1/3 of wishes compared to last yr so?.. WOW 18 ! (man , to have good knees again..(wanna trade?..LOL) Hope ya have passion ya wanna persue so when HS is over, you can full speed ahead doing what ya love to do! Happy Birthday from someone ya dont know, but is thinkin of ya!

Theres 1.5 Hrs left (where I am EDT) of your birthday and looky here , she's a Scorpio.. "Scorpios value intelligence in their significant others. You gotta be smart to hang with a Scorpio."...Is THAT SO.....LOL. I kinda knew this , cause a young lady (old now...LOL) I knew in NM was THAT and Ill just bet your quick witted, good w/ ppls probs, like her. Gosh, honestly, If I knew where ya were, Id come over and get ya and take ya out for a quick bite. Vans still fulla music gear from earlier but Id move the gtr amp and let ya sit up front..LOL (dont do that for just anybody....LOL).  I surely hope ya get some belated birthday wishes from those ya know. So many ppl are so down right now w/covid effectin every facet of life and  not operatin on all cylinders right now. (like my poor ole van..LOL) and I see it on FB pages of birthdays. Only bout 1/3 of wishes compared to last yr so?.. WOW 18 ! (man , to have good knees again..(wanna trade?..LOL) Hope ya have passion ya wanna persue so when HS is over, you can full speed ahead doing what ya love to do! Happy Birthday from someone ya dont know, but is thinkin of ya!

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Thank you very much for acknowledging me lol you sound matured and full of wisdom (old lol) and that's perfect I love that I'd be elated to spend just a second with you, you sound awesome and thanks for the wishes you made my rest of year thank you so much Ps: I did shed a couple tears and b couple I mean alot ♥️

Thank you very much for acknowledging me lol you sound matured and full of wisdom (old lol) and that's perfect I love that I'd be elated to spend just a second with you, you sound awesome and thanks for the wishes you made my rest of year thank you so much Ps: I did shed a couple tears and b couple I mean alot ♥️

Hey ! Your welcome. Wisdom to impart to others ? Yes...Now..Mature? ....well?......LOL .. Im still a guy so....? do we ever REALLY mature? (warning to all women....LOL).Glad my message brought you some smiles!.. Now... this "Old" business?...LOL(where you guys gettin these emojis on here?..Im LOLing myself self to death..LOL) Yes, the ole carcass has takin a beating over the yrs but due to my profession, Ive been able to keep my heart/soul (most of my brain) in the 25-35 bracket refusing to succum to "boomerville" ..LOL. My birthday wish for you is to not let others define who your are. remeber , you "teach ppl HOW to teach you"... think about that for a few min." ALWAYS remember the 90/10 rule... "Life is 10% what happens to you....90% how you "respond" SEW TRUE!. You sound like ya appreciate the simple, deeper meaningful occurences in this life, (sometimes PRICELESS), gestures you and others have to offer. Pay it foward girl...You have a purpose here, and will value, periodically, how your kind gestures / messages of hope will touch others lives.Now, this"old'" person needs his 2 HR nap so....LOL Take care!

Hey ! Your welcome. Wisdom to impart  to others ? Yes...Now..Mature? ....well?......LOL .. Im still a guy so....? do we ever REALLY mature? (warning to all women....LOL).Glad my message brought you some smiles!.. Now... this "Old" business?...LOL(where you guys gettin these  emojis on here?..Im LOLing myself self to death..LOL) Yes, the ole carcass has takin a  beating over the yrs but due to my profession, Ive been able to keep my heart/soul (most of my brain) in the 25-35 bracket refusing to succum to "boomerville" ..LOL. My birthday wish for you is to not let others define who your are. remeber , you "teach ppl HOW to teach you"... think about that for a few min." ALWAYS remember the 90/10 rule... "Life is 10% what happens to you....90% how you "respond" SEW TRUE!. You sound like ya appreciate the simple, deeper meaningful occurences in this life, (sometimes PRICELESS), gestures you and others have to offer. Pay it foward girl...You have a purpose here, and will value, periodically, how your kind gestures / messages of hope will touch others lives.Now, this"old'" person needs his 2 HR nap so....LOL Take care!

CRAP! That shoulda said "You teach ppl how to "TREAT you"... I think the rule on here is that Teeniors are allowed 3 typos per article before the "nose in the book " penalty is administered..(old 60s cartoon..LOL) Now when this school yr is done, on the last day, at precisly 3:06PM, you will youtube "Schools OUT" (alice cooper) and sing it w/ him to the top of your lungs!..LOL...............................................................................................................................................................................................XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

CRAP! That shoulda said "You teach ppl how  to "TREAT you"... I think the rule on here is that Teeniors are allowed 3 typos per article before the "nose in the book " penalty is administered..(old 60s cartoon..LOL) Now when this school yr is done, on the last day, at precisly 3:06PM, you will youtube "Schools OUT" (alice cooper) and sing it w/ him to the top of your lungs!..LOL...............................................................................................................................................................................................XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Lol you take good care and I'll try my best I do good in school so I'll make it out for sure. I'm trying my very best this year to secure a few scholarships and it will be smooth from there hopefully. I actually looked forward for a response isn't that a bit sad lol my only "friend" is an anonymous person which I'm grateful lol thanks again.

Lol you take good care and I'll try my best I do good in school so I'll make it out for sure. I'm trying my very best this year to secure a few scholarships and it will be smooth from there hopefully. I actually looked forward for a response isn't that a bit sad lol my only "friend" is an anonymous person which I'm grateful lol thanks again.

Hey girl, may be alittle sad but from what I see in my daily life, as well as on here,is its not at all unusual. Alot of it IS b/c of covid, but I saw this "trend" start around 95. I was tellin some guys at the house party the other night, who agreed, that we kept in better touch, had more actual "friends", made better networking contacts, when all we had was just a landline. (never get you guys to believe that though..LOL) All kinds of unexpected occurences, often detremental a 1st,somehow take us to places , where we normal wouldnt have gone, meeting ppl , who woulda never crossed our path. (snowed in airports)( flippin a coin to see which road to take..LOL).I came hear to write a gut wrenchin story of impossble love and to hear feedback from females in the 20s.Didnt get any replys, BUT, a weight was lifted just writing it out and have it starin back at me.Bet it was for you too! Been hangin here a while and thought I could pay it fwd being this OLD person, LOL w/ many yrs of exp in many walks of life.Anyway, ya seem a bit more chipper in thinkin of your future now which is GREAT news! Yeah, its nice to be able to "sense" by text,that some one IS grateful,even if it was never mentioned, even more so when that person makes sure it IS mentioned.Im not around many young ppl anymore and Ive learned so much since being here so drop by and share a bit when time permits.(hey! I rhymed..LOL)

Hey girl, may be alittle sad but from what I see in my daily life, as well as on here,is its not at all unusual. Alot of it IS b/c of covid, but I saw this "trend" start around 95. I was tellin some guys at the house party the other night, who agreed, that we kept in better touch, had more actual "friends", made better networking contacts, when all we had was just a landline. (never get you guys to believe that though..LOL) All kinds of unexpected occurences, often detremental a 1st,somehow take us to places , where we normal wouldnt have gone, meeting ppl , who woulda never crossed our path. (snowed in airports)( flippin a coin to see which road to take..LOL).I came hear to write a gut wrenchin story of impossble love and to hear feedback from females in the 20s.Didnt get any replys, BUT, a weight was lifted just writing it out and have it starin back at me.Bet it was for you too! Been hangin here a while and thought I could pay it fwd being this OLD person, LOL w/ many yrs of exp in many walks of life.Anyway, ya seem a bit more chipper in thinkin of your future now which is GREAT news!  Yeah, its nice to be able to "sense" by text,that some one IS grateful,even if it was never mentioned, even more so when that person makes sure it IS mentioned.Im not around many young ppl anymore and Ive learned so much since being here so drop by and share a bit when time permits.(hey! I rhymed..LOL) 

Lol I do look forward to this I actually posted three of these and I did express a little more about what I'm feeling in this one and this one got the most views. I look forward to a family of my own to drown them in love, kisses and hugs I don't know how I'm going to because I find it extremely hard to even hug another individual I don't know why but it's just that way I can't say "I love you" it feels so uncomfortable and I just can't let it out it's so hard for me to show any emotions in that sense I feel mostly sadness and hate i think a lot about my life which I think helps to stir the anger in me even more. But I know for sure that I'll live I life that I want and give my children everything that I wanted. I do feel better i feel much better I'm trying and I'll continue to try sigh. And my emojis are on my keyboard 😅 let me know the type of phone you have and I'll give you directions on finding yours. You truly are a good person I can't seem to thank you enough. The small things do matter. Lol I also notice you love to stress the old lol I'm sorry to assume your age. I hope to be able to speak to someone give them something to look forward to as you do, one day I will.

Lol I do look forward to this I actually posted three of these and I did express a little more about what I'm feeling in this one and this one got the most views. I look forward to a family of my own to drown them in love, kisses and hugs I don't know how I'm going to because I find it extremely hard to even hug another individual I don't know why but it's just that way I can't say "I love you" it feels so uncomfortable and I just can't let it out it's so hard for me to show any emotions in that sense I feel mostly sadness and hate i think a lot about my life which I think helps to stir the anger in me even more. But I know for sure that I'll live I life that I want and give my children everything that I wanted. I do feel better i feel much better I'm trying and I'll continue to try sigh. And my emojis are on my keyboard 😅 let me know the type of phone you have and I'll give you directions on finding yours. You truly are a good person I can't seem to thank you enough. The small things do matter. Lol I also notice you love to stress the old lol I'm sorry to assume your age. I hope to be able to speak to someone give them something to look forward to as you do, one day I will. 

I love you sense of humor you actually hot me laughing and smiling been awhile so thanks😌 I just also reread the one where you correct your self about an old saying and I just got what you were saying fully lol took a second😅 I'd love to read the article that you published could you please write the name next time you're writing back.

I love you sense of humor you actually hot me laughing and smiling been awhile so thanks😌 I just also reread the one where you correct your self about an old saying and I just got what you were saying fully lol took a second😅 I'd love to read the article that you published could you please write the name next time you're writing back.

Phone?..(she thinks Im on a phone...LOL) Are you kiddin?..It would take me 6 months to write back on a phone. I have OLD phone that does have the boomer approved "speech to text" on it ,BUT, I cant be "Me" and do my style of writing with that dumb thing..LOL. The computer Im on is 15 yrs old and still usin WIN 7 so alotta the emjois dont appear as they should. Some of yours thus far, lack color (B/W ...must be 60's emojis..LOL). Yeah, its kinda hard to follow on here sometimes makin it easy to miss someones reply. Plus, when its REAL busy on here, like in the early evening, the server crashes. I think thats why ya see someones post/reply listed many times due to it hangin up in the system. I try to write as if Im THERE talkin to ya face/face. I often will say things, not sure if they can be truly takin properly by text, so some of my writings get a few clicks of the "head scratchin" emoji..LOL..Yeah, I kinda grew up the your describing with there being very lil display of affection, and sharing of emotions.My mom was VERY good about telling me to "always remember ...Your mama loves ya" while gone for 25 yrs playin. That was key to get me thru some pretty dark times. Teens often rebel against any parental love shown, which is normal.Usually ,reading the posts that have to do w/ "I HATE MY PARENTS", I find myself siding WITH the parents when I find that its , what I would consider, normal responsiblitys that are expected of teens and the high tension between the Jeckle/ Hyde "Being" LOL,and parents is for the most part, normal / expected. But in your case , I sense you not minding to DO your chores, its that you wanted some appreciation/ kudos which is perfectly fine and warrented. OH BTW, I did see your first "short" posting to which I flet wasnt enough to really get the "minds eye" pic of what was going on, but THEN....I saw this one and it tugged alittle hard at the heart and I said" That poor girl need some body to be w/ her on her BD so "Dudley Do Right" (60s again..LOL) to Z REZ Q. Yeah... I think you'll be OK finding your way w/ new love exps. We all have to in our "own" way anyway?.OMG!!! , the BOOKs you gals read back in the day, tellin ya how "Find your man.. and KEEP him" LOL . Had these poor girls heads so messed up.LOL (poise magazine... 13 going on 30..LOL).How bout "Men are from MARS... WImmins from VENUS" .... Double EEEEK! LOL....Now, the "old " thang is just me razzin ya a bit, to which coming from someone your age, is expected. Here Im reading these nice kudos Im being paid followed by.........OLD.....LOL..Ill admit , since I AM some fluke of nature, remaining in my lil time warped world (60s-80s) having a 20s-30s mentality, the word stang just a lil...LOLOLOL.. BUT, it s true and when you read my article, it will make sense.Again, totally warrented from a YOUNG girl..(there has that?..LOL) I think Ill just stick w/ my simple LOL on here. I found out a few young ppl DONT like my "Many Caps"..I had one young lady refer to me as the "many caps dude"..LOL. Im FAST typing w/ my style as well... dont wanna change who I am.... FOR HER...LOL. Anyway, like I say, Its tricky tryin to keep up on here. sometimes you wont actually SEE a reply on the main feed for a while so I just follow the article and remember the # of posts it had, but then , ya still gotta click on them all to find the newest. Anyway, so you wanna read a sappy ole "dime novel" do ya?..LOL...(wait?..this aint funny...) Keep in mind, this was back in AUG when I was still "raw". Its alittle hard to follow in places cause it was "sorta" copied from a notebook. GEEZ, I dont know why Im nervous but...LOL Here goes... Go to the search window, type in "Time Warp Love"....OMG! This is EMBARESKIN, the humanity!!! ARRG!!! "Shame Shame Everybody knows your NAME"..MOMMY!..(you'll understand as you reach the end. At least I got some emojis..LOL.I even bumped it and begged for a reply as you'll see (crickets....).I feel differently now though, so the desperation has subsided.

Phone?..(she thinks Im on a phone...LOL) Are you kiddin?..It would take me 6 months to write back on a phone. I have OLD phone that does have the boomer approved "speech to text" on it ,BUT, I cant be "Me" and do my style of writing with that dumb thing..LOL. The computer Im on is 15 yrs old and still usin WIN 7 so alotta the emjois dont appear as they should. Some of yours thus far, lack color (B/W ...must be 60's emojis..LOL). Yeah, its kinda hard to follow on here sometimes makin it easy to miss someones reply. Plus, when its REAL busy on here, like in the early evening, the server crashes. I think thats why ya see someones post/reply listed many times due to it hangin up in the system. I try to write as if Im THERE talkin to ya face/face. I often will say things, not sure if they can be truly takin properly by text, so some of my writings get a few clicks of the "head scratchin" emoji..LOL..Yeah, I kinda grew up the your describing with there being very lil display of affection, and sharing of emotions.My mom was VERY good about telling me to "always remember ...Your mama loves ya" while gone for 25 yrs playin. That was key to get me thru some pretty dark times. Teens often rebel against any parental love shown, which is normal.Usually ,reading the posts that have to do w/ "I HATE MY PARENTS", I find myself siding WITH the parents when I find that its , what I would consider, normal responsiblitys that are expected of teens and the high tension between the Jeckle/ Hyde "Being" LOL,and parents is for the most part, normal / expected. But in your case , I sense you not minding to DO your chores, its that you wanted some appreciation/ kudos which is perfectly fine and warrented. OH BTW, I did see your first "short" posting to which I flet wasnt enough to really get the "minds eye" pic of what was going on, but THEN....I saw this one and it tugged alittle hard at the heart  and I said" That poor girl need some body to be w/ her on her BD so "Dudley Do Right" (60s again..LOL) to Z REZ Q. Yeah... I think you'll be OK finding your way w/ new love exps. We all have to in our "own" way anyway?.OMG!!! , the BOOKs you gals read back in the day, tellin ya how "Find your man.. and KEEP him" LOL . Had these poor girls heads so messed up.LOL (poise magazine... 13 going on 30..LOL).How bout "Men are from MARS... WImmins from VENUS" .... Double EEEEK! LOL....Now, the "old " thang is just me razzin ya a bit, to which coming from someone your age, is expected. Here Im reading these nice kudos Im being paid followed by.........OLD.....LOL..Ill admit , since I AM some fluke of nature, remaining in my lil time warped world (60s-80s) having a 20s-30s mentality, the word stang just a lil...LOLOLOL.. BUT, it s true and when you read my article, it will make sense.Again, totally warrented from a YOUNG girl..(there has that?..LOL) I think Ill just stick w/ my simple LOL on here. I found out a few young ppl DONT like my "Many Caps"..I had one young lady refer to me as the "many caps dude"..LOL. Im FAST typing w/ my style as well... dont wanna change who I am.... FOR HER...LOL. Anyway, like I say, Its tricky tryin to keep up on here. sometimes you wont actually SEE a reply on the main feed for a while so I just follow the article and remember the # of posts it had, but then , ya still gotta click on them all to find the newest. Anyway, so you wanna read a sappy ole "dime novel"  do ya?..LOL...(wait?..this aint funny...) Keep in mind, this was back in AUG when I was still "raw". Its alittle hard to follow in places cause it was "sorta" copied from a notebook. GEEZ, I dont know why Im nervous but...LOL Here goes... Go to the search window, type in "Time Warp Love"....OMG! This is EMBARESKIN, the humanity!!! ARRG!!! "Shame Shame Everybody knows your NAME"..MOMMY!..(you'll understand as you reach the end. At least I got some emojis..LOL.I even bumped it and begged for a reply as you'll see  (crickets....).I feel differently now though, so the desperation  has subsided.

So I read your story and I'm glad. I had imagined you to be early 60s I'm kinda correct lol it was a great story. I don't have much experience in that area😅 though I'm glad you told her at least you knew after the fact right? Lol but it's her lost, people are very vocal now about being gay or bi so I doubt that was the case or you'd definitely know by the rainbow they usually put in there bio. I wished you both remained in contact though😔 I hope she will reach out. Once again it was truly a lovely story and I'm soo sorry i can't give much feedback.

So I read your story and I'm glad. I had imagined you to be early 60s I'm kinda correct lol it was a great story. I don't have much experience in that area😅 though I'm glad you told her at least you knew after the fact right? Lol but it's her lost, people are very vocal now about being gay or bi so I doubt that was the case or you'd definitely know by the rainbow they usually put in there bio. I wished you both remained in contact though😔 I hope she will reach out. Once again it was truly a lovely story and I'm soo sorry i can't give much feedback.

As for me it's not a problem to help around the house, the problem exists because I'm the only person doing anything in the house. I try to hate them but I can't even though I'm treated less than my siblings who says whatever they feel and has no respect. Perhaps if I start behaving like them I'd get treated better yea no I tried and it ended with swollen areas all around my body. I'm black so in my household likewise many other black or latino households children get a good ass whooping for "talking back" just a simple expression is deemed disrespectful. I'd love for some appreciation yes for my mother to say lol I almost called my name to say .... I love you and I appreciate you you know I'm here for you the small things. I feel as though I'm bothering you sorry today haven't been the best day

As for me it's not a problem to help around the house, the problem exists because I'm the only person doing anything in the house. I try to hate them but I can't even though I'm treated less than my siblings who says whatever they feel and has no respect. Perhaps if I start behaving like them I'd get treated better yea no I tried and it ended with swollen areas all around my body. I'm black so in my household likewise many other black or latino households children get a good ass whooping for "talking back" just a simple expression is deemed disrespectful. I'd love for some appreciation yes for my mother to say lol I almost called my name to say .... I love you and I appreciate you you know I'm here for you the small things. I feel as though I'm bothering you sorry today haven't been the best day 

Hey! 1st off, no matter what kinda mood your in, you can write and by doing so, your not bothering me. Now...2nd ...OUCH! Early 60s? News flash! 60 is NOT early 60s....... (bare w/ me..LOL) You have to be IN your 6 TEES to be "early 60s" Im only 60 so thats kinda like LATE 59ish BARELY crossing over TO 60..LOL. But, on my BD, I was kinda depressed b/c Id had 10 yrs of the fab 50s (kinda where its safe not to be old yet..LOL) Then BOOM.... in one day.........SIIIIIXXXXXTTTTTYYYY. like Id crossed over some threshold..LOL OK , enuff whining...Yeah, hitting that mark really helped out w/ the girl in the story as well.Thats kinda why I was wanting replys cause I wanted to hear things like EEWW GROSS, or My GOD , robbin the cradle werent ya? or DUDE , you cant be serious? Thanks for reading! Ya gave me some things to consider, although that "rainbow may not have been on her page due to her "job".... Yeah..not right..but Ill never know now ..really?...I dont have a prob with it IF she is, but Its a good thing that she chose not to write back though. She wants me in her class next yr and doesnt want it to be "weird" so I get that. Now...Im kinda glad (now hold dont jump to conculsions) that your folks still believe in a "good ass-whippin" BUT! ... BUT!...leavin marks on you /w bruising is NOT .repeat... NOT...OK..I got my ass beat ALOT, but it was mainly ..THEE ass, which most of what was hurt , was my pride/ego. Gosh, this is gonna sound weird..LOL but I always wanted a black grandmother, when I got in my 20s and was travelin alot. They seemed to be the ROCK of the family. and COOK ...OMG...LOL.. Being a musician, we never saw "color" as a factor to judge/ pre-judge,a player, or friend alike, but culturally our childhood yrs were different, in a good way, which was GREAT.. I learned so much about BB and Muddy Waters and other black blues players , which ACTUALLY were HUGE influences on The Stones/ Beatles/ Zep/ and MOST of any 20th C rock n roller. These EARLY black pioneers were recorded on WAX CYLINDER (before vinyl) in the LATE 1800s and the 20s JAZZ era was born b/c of these Cats. I studied later drummers like Jo Jones/ Art Blakely/ Billy Cobhams drummin in Jr High and still love to watch their old videos today. Great movies have been put out like the Ray Charles story. I say all this b/c from a musician stand point, yes , we're culturally different BUT, skin color never spelled or even hinted at racism. I honestly hope young black musicians realise where Rock , Jazz, Blues (born motown w/ black /white musicians ALIKE) really came from...Ok... rant over..LOL Got carried way cause I watch a doc. bout 2 weeks ago on some black/white blues clubs from the 30s that are still going today. RICH in history.Yeah, being around older folks ALL the time would have to be a drag, no matter what the living conditions are. I try my best to not say "baby girl" or "sweetie" but its hard sometimes cause yrs DO NOT pass/ go by the same once your over 40..They FLY!!!!!!!!!!!! by...So after 20 yrs of the previous yrs "FLYING BY" we can not look at 18 and practically... yesterday..LOL Honestly, 18yrs ago really only seems like 7-8. Used to have a old dude we fished w/ ask us how old we were. We 'd say 14 -15... He'd well hell, yalls just born yesterday. Now, I know a Yr to YOU seems like an eternity..LOL...To Me, it seems like i JUST DID the stupid leaves about 3 months ago and here it is ....THAT TIME AGAIN..LOL...I think maybe your folks may depend on you and rule with alittle more of an "iron fist" ,if you will, maybe to set an example for the other, less responsible sibs? In hopes of getting them to be more like you, if by attrition? Just a hypothetical? I remember 1st reading your article thinkin she's 18 and no F word, no DAMN, SHIT, WTH?.impressive! .LOL (now I expected "toxic"..LOL) OOOO , wanna smack me now ..right?..LOL. But , I thought this young lady , though she doesnt like her circumstances, has some good ole fashion respect and comes here to vent, rather than blow up at her folks. Well,I say its that ole "go along to get along" plan you'll have to adopt unitl you can see clear to be ABLE to change those circumstances. If the folks have minimal funds comin in, like I do right now (lost my job "sorta" b/c of covid), its gotta be puttin them on edge and more likely to call you out for being ungrateful, even if its just "their" perception.. Also, Ive wrtoe to 2-3 other young ladys on here about the possibilty of "mom" if past 45, being premenopausal and /or perimenopausal. The symtoms can be SEVERE. Read up if it applys. Doesnt "excuse" the behavior but could shed light on some of her more "batshitcrazy" episodes.Well, id better get that dumb van unloaded (takes a while w/ BAD knee..LOL). Getcha some sleep so you can be "up and AT-EM tomorrow at skewl.Im gonna "teenior" (55-65) out for a while. No prune juice ...YET! LOL

Hey! 1st off, no matter what kinda mood your in, you can write and by doing so, your not bothering me. Now...2nd ...OUCH!  Early 60s?  News flash!   60 is NOT early 60s....... (bare w/ me..LOL) You have to be IN your 6 TEES to be "early 60s" Im only 60 so thats kinda like LATE 59ish BARELY crossing over TO 60..LOL. But, on my BD, I was kinda depressed b/c Id had 10 yrs of the fab 50s (kinda where its safe not to be old yet..LOL) Then BOOM.... in one day.........SIIIIIXXXXXTTTTTYYYY. like Id crossed over some threshold..LOL OK , enuff whining...Yeah, hitting that mark really helped out w/ the girl in the story as well.Thats kinda why I was wanting replys cause I wanted to hear things like EEWW GROSS, or My GOD , robbin the cradle werent ya? or DUDE , you cant be serious? Thanks for reading! Ya gave me some things to consider, although that "rainbow may not have been on her page due to her "job".... Yeah..not right..but Ill never know now ..really?...I dont have a prob with it IF she is, but Its a good thing that she chose not to write back though. She wants me in her class next yr and doesnt want it to be "weird" so I get that.Now...Im kinda glad (now hold dont jump to conculsions) that your folks still believe in a "good ass-whippin" BUT! ... BUT!...leavin marks on you /w bruising is NOT  .repeat... NOT...OK..I got my ass beat ALOT, but it was mainly ..THEE ass, which most of what was hurt , was my pride/ego. Gosh, this is gonna sound weird..LOL but I always wanted a black grandmother, when I got in my 20s and was travelin alot. They seemed to be the ROCK of the family. and COOK ...OMG...LOL.. Being a musician, we never saw "color" as a factor to judge/ pre-judge,a player, or friend alike, but culturally our childhood yrs were different, in a good way, which was GREAT.. I learned so much about BB and Muddy Waters and other black blues players , which ACTUALLY were HUGE influences on The Stones/ Beatles/ Zep/ and MOST of any 20th C rock n roller. These EARLY black pioneers  were recorded on WAX CYLINDER (before vinyl) in the LATE 1800s and the 20s JAZZ era was born b/c of these Cats. I studied later drummers like Jo Jones/ Art Blakely/ Billy Cobhams drummin in Jr High and still love to watch their old videos today. Great movies have been put out like the Ray Charles story. I say all this b/c from a musician stand point, yes , we're culturally different BUT, skin color never spelled or even hinted at racism. I honestly hope young black musicians realise where Rock , Jazz, Blues (born motown w/ black /white musicians ALIKE) really came from...Ok... rant over..LOL Got carried way cause I watch a doc. bout 2 weeks ago on some black/white blues clubs from the 30s that are still going today. RICH in history.Yeah, being around older folks ALL the time would have to be a drag, no matter what the living conditions are. I try my best to not say "baby girl" or "sweetie" but its hard sometimes cause yrs DO NOT pass/ go by the same once your over 40..They FLY!!!!!!!!!!!! by...So after 20 yrs of the previous yrs "FLYING BY" we can not look at 18 and practically... yesterday..LOL Honestly, 18yrs ago really only seems like 7-8. Used to have a old dude we fished w/ ask us how old we were. We 'd say 14 -15... He'd well hell, yalls just born yesterday. Now, I know a Yr to YOU seems like an eternity..LOL...To Me, it seems like i JUST DID the stupid leaves about 3 months ago and here it is ....THAT TIME AGAIN..LOL...I think maybe your folks may depend on you and rule with alittle more of an "iron fist" ,if you will, maybe to set an example for the other, less responsible sibs? In hopes of getting them to be more like you, if by attrition?  Just a hypothetical? I remember 1st reading your article thinkin she's 18 and no F word, no DAMN, SHIT, WTH?.impressive! .LOL (now I expected "toxic"..LOL)  OOOO , wanna smack me now ..right?..LOL. But , I thought this young lady , though she doesnt like her circumstances, has some good ole fashion respect and comes here to vent, rather than blow up at her folks.  Well,I say its that ole "go along to get along" plan you'll have to adopt unitl you can see clear to be ABLE to change those circumstances. If the folks have minimal funds comin in, like I do right now (lost my job "sorta" b/c of covid), its gotta be puttin them on edge and more likely to call you out for being ungrateful, even if its just "their" perception.. Also, Ive wrtoe to 2-3 other young ladys on here about the possibilty of "mom" if past 45, being   premenopausal and /or perimenopausal. The symtoms can be SEVERE. Read up  if it applys. Doesnt "excuse" the behavior but could shed light on some of her more "batshitcrazy" episodes.Well, id better get that dumb van unloaded (takes a while w/ BAD knee..LOL). Getcha some sleep so you can be "up and AT-EM tomorrow at skewl.Im gonna "teenior" (55-65) out for a while. No prune juice ...YET!  LOL

Ok thanks for clarifying. And I got it so it's late 50ish lol 😂😅. You're right a teacher wouldn't put that in her bio at least not make it so public. I love how passionate you are about music I just can tell you're great at it, when I was younger I used to imagine myself as a singer but like one of them with that powerful voice I mean the one that gives you goose bumps and shiver like Whitney Houston but unfortunately I can't sing lol I also enjoy watching people playing the piano you could listen ballin by Rodi Ricch with live orchestra the pianist was beautifully done. I don't listen to a lot of old hits but I'll give the ones you mention a listen. A year does seem like an eternity for me but it's like that because I don't really enjoy myself and have fun. When you are having fun time fliessss. My siblings are as tough as steal there's nothing I can do or would do to change them I actually stay as far as I can from them with little or no interaction i would like to have nothing to do with them. I will speak to my sister if I have to but with my brother I do not! We have a long history and as far as i can remember we have never got along we always fight like real throw down fight he usually win cause he's bigger than me and more muscular and even after that I'd get a good beating from my parents I've always hated him from way back we do not communicate any at all. Also I do curse but it's not common so coming on here it wasn't even in my intentions to do it. Probably because I subconsciously know younger than me is using this site I actually heard about it from a 13 or 14 year old girl she was telling someone it's hard to express herself but doing it here anonymously makes it much easier. It did take me a couple months before visiting the site but here I am :) my parents does well for themselves my mother is a lecturer part time and teach at a high school full time, my father is also an educator well was he's retired. I rarely ask for anything but when I do it's always they don't have it lol my sister goes out very often and they give her they also give her to go shopping every week and goes out with friends. But someone it's never enough to stretch to me strange huh

Ok thanks for clarifying. And I got it so it's late 50ish lol 😂😅. You're right a teacher wouldn't put that in her bio at least not make it so public. I love how passionate you are about music I just can tell you're great at it, when I was younger I used to imagine myself as a singer but like one of them with that powerful voice I mean the one that gives you goose bumps and shiver like Whitney Houston but unfortunately I can't sing lol I also enjoy watching people playing the piano you could listen ballin by Rodi Ricch with live orchestra the pianist was beautifully done. I don't listen to a lot of old hits but I'll give the ones you mention a listen. A year does seem like an eternity for me but it's like that because I don't really enjoy myself and have fun. When you are having fun time fliessss. My siblings are as tough as steal there's nothing I can do or would do to change them I actually stay as far as I can from them with little or no interaction i would like to have nothing to do with them. I will speak to my sister if I have to but with my brother I do not! We have a long history and as far as i can remember we have never got along we always fight like real throw down fight he usually win cause he's bigger than me and more muscular and even after that I'd get a good beating from my parents I've always hated him from way back we do not communicate any at all. Also I do curse but it's not common so coming on here it wasn't even in my intentions to do it. Probably because I subconsciously know younger than me is using this site I actually heard about it from a 13 or 14 year old girl she was telling someone it's hard to express herself but doing it here anonymously makes it much easier. It did take me a couple months before visiting the site but here I am :) my parents does well for themselves my mother is a lecturer part time and teach at a high school full time, my father is also an educator well was he's retired. I rarely ask for anything but when I do it's always they don't have it lol my sister goes out very often and they give her they also give her to go shopping every week and goes out with friends. But someone it's never enough to stretch to me strange huh

I tell ya??? You parents are hard to figure out?.Only thing I can draw on is own exp w/ my teens yrs, living on the block w/ about 4 familys I can think of who's parents professional lives kinda match yours and they were STRRRICT with the kids. couldnt stay out as late as most (11PM). Home work FIRST, before even thinkin about hittin the door. Whippings that seemed alittle outragious to Us. No signs of affection being shown, kinda cold to Us other teens when in their yard. Seemed to have a very routined life, never gathering w/ the other parents for friendly afterwork /after skewl chats around the mail boxes. Seemed to be a common "trait" shared? We always felt bad BUT, being TEEEENS, we did rub it in alittle by saying 1-2-3 TORTUREEEEEEEE, when they had to go inside, or were being punished for something. Hate it that your having to endure this kinda family dynamic. Sounds like your alittle more tender hearted, which IMO,makes you the most "healthy" outta the bunch. Puzzling for sure why the folks let it be "made obviously" that your sis is favored in ways that short change you? Only thing I can come up with is that maybe She suffered at birth? Was neglected more as a baby (parents in school , and child w/ sitter most of the time? Ya havent mentioned her age yet , nor the bro. so its hard to follow a time line. I think parents "Can"do this kinda sub consiously as well? I always used to think my bro (4yrs younger) was favored so that made me beat his ass that much harder. I think them KNOWING, even as early as 10, that I was gonna be one of them long hair hippy type muzeeeshuns so that kinda went against me alittle. Now......Is what your wanting to DO in life vocationally, or study , after HS, the having kids and a husband, do anything or all of these have ANYTHING to do, apart for your Sis, with the way your treated "differently" from her? One thing is for sure, you will know the value of a dollar , even if you secure a good job having adequate $$$ and my girl, THAT is PRICELESS. Now, you dont really fit this description Im about to depict but in school, during Xmas, there was always a "fund" and an anonyomus Gift giving, program that took place for the less fortunate , to which my folks gave.... Those kids (2 Im in touch w /on FB), are doing WELL despite their meager beginnings.High hopes for you baby girl..(crap I did it didnt I...LOL) (had to ONE in there just for good measure..LOL)Now, I think EVERYBODY can sing alittle if they have just a lil ear training. You gotta remember , when you hearin Whitney, your hearing the effects of a "mastered " recording which mean compressors, costing 7-10K $$$ are being used to "smmmmmoooooth" out that voice, taking the harsh peaks/ spikes out, leaving the lush, velvety perfection WE hear. Ill guarnTEE, if you were sittin in her living room , no mic at all, w just acoustic gtr, you would be shocked. You would still hear the obvious quality in her voice timbre but unprocessed, would be an eye opener. Vocalists before all these new "toys" came about had to REEEALLY have it, and often times, before the 50s Ill say, the raw voice was actually better. You guys put a video out on the tube /w just a 100$ webcam mic and expect to sound LIKE Whitney..LOL.. Ya gotta have the passion for it really before you'll truly follow the steps to get better so???LOL AND, sometimes, due to health,or reasons like mmm? lemme think a min....mmmm? being OLD, can be a lil set back..LOL.. I never did honestly sing well, like those Ive worked with BUT, I DID RE invent myself in 90 to do what Im doing now w/ my solo nostagia show , where like in my story, I play all the intruments and perform LIVE w/ vocals /gtr. Dont care what others think. ME is gonna do ME regardless..LOLYeah, I enjoy me some pieanner as well. Its prolly my "weakest instrument" but its in Plenty of my covers I do. I have cheat...SOMETIMES , not all, by putting the LH on trk 5, RH trk 6..LOL Well? Im not perfect....(gosh I sound like one of those dreaded, most outspoken, TEENS..LOL) You know Im teasin now...Oh yeah , really like the piano structuring in Ballin, a nice lility flow, but honestly, cant say I care for the lyrics, but thats just me. Yeah, the 13-14 yr olds out number you older teens by far. Shocking, unfathomable stuff I read, which often I pray isnt as bad as whats being said. Ive written to 3-4 13 yr old girls on here and had to spend ALOTTA time being careful as to how I worded things. WAY WAY WAY too young to even have the midset they have , let alone the probs they face. Now, it may not be warranted "Now" b/c you've never mentioned any symtomatic, on going signs of anger turned inward (depression) but if/ when you do ever get panic attacks/ feel depressed for a long time where you body goes into K oss, constant nervous stomach (ulcer type symptoms), blurry vision, tingly hands, having fear of fear, crippling self doubt, Ill want you to read another story of mine on HOW .... I beat all this...18-21 then again around 24-26. This was BEFORE the shrinks got ahold of and "created" MORE sickness to name in its "honor"... Yeah,,, Its honor..... (not a big fan of todays over treatment with crippling mind altering drugs giving to teens who's very BRAINS still lack frontal cortex developement ... These teachers/ doctors should "ride the lightening" for what theyve done to the past 2 gens.. I say this to you "personnally" w/o judging others for "their" choices, so that you will consider treating yourself homeopathically , IF..... this ever arises in your life...Like i say, i only wanna post this if you feel the "Need " to read it...Gotta run , its pourin the rain and the basement will likely be fooding..LOL

I tell ya??? You parents are hard to figure out?.Only thing I can draw on is own exp w/ my teens yrs, living on the block w/ about 4 familys I can think of who's parents professional lives kinda match yours and they were STRRRICT with the kids. couldnt stay out as late as most (11PM). Home work FIRST, before even thinkin about hittin the door. Whippings that seemed alittle outragious to Us. No signs of affection being shown, kinda cold to Us other teens when in their yard. Seemed to have a very routined life, never gathering w/ the other parents for friendly afterwork /after skewl chats around the mail boxes. Seemed to be a common "trait" shared? We always felt bad BUT, being TEEEENS, we did rub it in alittle by saying 1-2-3 TORTUREEEEEEEE, when they had to go inside, or were being punished for something. Hate it that your having to endure this kinda family dynamic. Sounds like your alittle more tender hearted, which IMO,makes you the most "healthy" outta the bunch. Puzzling for sure why the folks let it be "made obviously" that your sis is favored in ways that short change you? Only thing I can come up with is that maybe She suffered at birth? Was neglected more as a baby (parents in school , and child w/ sitter most of the time? Ya havent mentioned her age yet , nor the bro. so its hard to follow a time line. I think parents "Can"do this kinda sub consiously as well? I always used to think my bro (4yrs younger) was favored so that made me beat his ass that much harder. I think them KNOWING, even as early as 10, that I was gonna be one of them long hair hippy type muzeeeshuns so that kinda went against me alittle. Now......Is what your wanting to DO in life vocationally, or study , after HS, the having kids and a husband, do anything or all of these have ANYTHING to do, apart for your Sis, with the way your treated "differently" from her? One thing is for sure, you will know the value of a dollar , even if you secure a good job having adequate $$$ and my girl, THAT is PRICELESS. Now, you dont really fit this description Im about to depict but in school, during Xmas, there was always a "fund" and  an anonyomus Gift giving, program that took place for the less fortunate , to which my folks gave.... Those kids (2 Im in touch w /on FB), are doing WELL despite their meager beginnings.High hopes for you baby girl..(crap I did it didnt I...LOL) (had to ONE in there just for good measure..LOL)Now, I think EVERYBODY can sing alittle if they have just a lil ear training. You gotta remember , when you hearin Whitney, your hearing the effects of a "mastered " recording which mean compressors, costing 7-10K $$$ are being used to "smmmmmoooooth" out that voice, taking the harsh peaks/ spikes out, leaving the lush, velvety perfection WE hear. Ill guarnTEE, if you were sittin in her living room , no mic at all, w just acoustic gtr, you would be shocked. You would still hear the obvious quality in her voice timbre but unprocessed, would be an eye opener. Vocalists before all these new "toys" came about had to REEEALLY have it, and often times, before the 50s Ill say, the raw voice was actually better. You guys put a video out on the tube /w just a 100$ webcam mic and expect to sound LIKE Whitney..LOL.. Ya gotta have the passion for it really before  you'll truly follow the steps to get better so???LOL AND, sometimes, due to health,or reasons like mmm? lemme think a min....mmmm? being OLD, can be a lil set back..LOL.. I never did honestly sing well, like those Ive worked with BUT, I DID RE invent myself in 90 to do what Im doing now w/ my solo nostagia show , where like in my story, I play all the intruments and perform LIVE w/ vocals /gtr. Dont care what others think. ME is gonna do ME regardless..LOLYeah, I enjoy me some pieanner as well. Its prolly my "weakest instrument" but its in Plenty of my covers I do. I have cheat...SOMETIMES , not all, by putting the LH on trk 5, RH trk 6..LOL Well? Im not perfect....(gosh I sound like one of those dreaded, most outspoken, TEENS..LOL) You know Im teasin now...Oh yeah , really like the piano structuring in Ballin, a nice lility flow, but honestly, cant say I care for the lyrics, but thats just me. Yeah, the 13-14 yr olds out number you older teens by far. Shocking, unfathomable stuff I read, which often I pray isnt as bad as whats being said. Ive written to 3-4 13 yr old girls on here and  had to spend ALOTTA time being careful as to how I worded things. WAY WAY WAY too young to even have the midset they have , let alone the probs they face. Now, it may not be warranted "Now" b/c you've never mentioned any symtomatic, on going signs of anger turned inward (depression) but if/ when you do ever get panic attacks/ feel depressed for a long time where you body goes into K oss, constant nervous stomach (ulcer type symptoms), blurry vision, tingly hands, having fear of fear, crippling self doubt, Ill want you to read another story of mine on HOW .... I beat all this...18-21 then again around 24-26. This was BEFORE the shrinks got ahold of and  "created" MORE sickness to name in its "honor"... Yeah,,, Its honor..... (not a big fan of todays over treatment with crippling mind altering drugs giving to teens who's very BRAINS still lack frontal cortex developement ... These teachers/ doctors should "ride the lightening" for what theyve done to the past 2 gens.. I say this to you "personnally" w/o judging others for "their" choices, so that you will consider treating yourself homeopathically , IF..... this ever arises in your life...Like i say, i only wanna post this if you feel the "Need " to read it...Gotta run , its pourin the rain and the basement will likely be fooding..LOL

Hey my brother is 21 and my sis 20 my sis is in university my brother dropped himself out about 2 years ago and my parents are completely fine with that. I couldn't imagine doing that because "I'd be a disgrace to the family" that's what I hear when I don't do well on an exam anyways I try not to think about my whole situation I watch movies a lot to distract me or watch some tiktok videos it does help so much that It doesn't bother me that is until they get home from work they work later now since they have recently opened a shop so they get home by 8 so i see them less I'm going to read your other articles but not now I'll do it when I'm feeling depressed as you said

Hey my brother is 21 and my sis 20 my sis is in university my brother dropped himself out about 2 years ago and my parents are completely fine with that. I couldn't imagine doing that because "I'd be a disgrace to the family" that's what I hear when I don't do well on an exam anyways I try not to think about my whole situation I watch movies a lot to distract me or watch some tiktok videos it does help so much that It doesn't bother me that is until they get home from work they work later now since they have recently opened a shop so they get home by 8 so i see them less I'm going to read your other articles but not now I'll do it when I'm feeling depressed as you said

Wow, I had it figured wrong then. I was pretty much certain they were younger.Yeah, kinda feel bad for tryin to analyze this all out, and then share my summations with ya , kinda keepin things ever constant on your mind. Its just when ya cant directly help somebody , ya try to come up with anything to offer, as to WHY things are the way they are, and to find new ways/solutions to better cope. Yeah, I didnt really want to even mention the depression /anxiety story that Ive shared before and really, didnt sense that your plight was causing any outward signs BUT..... I had to let ya know, that IF?....IF you were experiencing ANY thing like that, that Ive been there/done that. Not to sound proud or like Ive got all the answers but to put you at ease IF?.....IF ya needed to share along those lines. Actually Im tickled to death you DONT need to read it. Its a story I save in my e mail to copy for ppl,who's storys pretty much match mine of YRS ago ..Ok , its a closed matter now.Gosh , I wish I knew more about tiktok, discord..LOL I see those mentioned on here all the time. Can you see ME on those? As clueless as I am here in the 21st?.LOL.Id be eatin alive wouldnt I?. I trust too much and would DEF get takin advantage of. Heck, I cant even manage FB .. Been hacked twice and scared to open up my wall again..LOL Just do DM and hangout on music pages. Well, you get to your tiktok veeedeeos and Im gotta warp my ass back to bout 67 and work on a couple...NEW ... tunes...LOL. (and vacuum up more water)... SHEESH , hasnt stopped rainin yet???

Wow, I had it figured wrong then. I was pretty much certain they were younger.Yeah, kinda feel bad for tryin to analyze this all out, and then share my summations with ya , kinda keepin things ever constant on your mind. Its just when ya cant directly help somebody , ya try to come up with anything to offer, as to WHY things are the way they are, and to find new ways/solutions to better cope. Yeah, I didnt really want to even mention the depression /anxiety story that Ive shared before and really, didnt sense that your plight was causing any outward signs BUT..... I had to let ya know, that IF?....IF you were experiencing ANY thing like that, that Ive been there/done that. Not to sound proud or like Ive got all the answers but to put you at ease IF?.....IF ya needed to share along those lines. Actually Im tickled to death you DONT need to read it. Its a story I save in my e mail to copy for ppl,who's storys pretty much match mine of YRS ago ..Ok , its a closed matter now.Gosh , I wish I knew more about tiktok, discord..LOL I see those mentioned on here all the time. Can you see ME on those? As clueless as I am here in the 21st?.LOL.Id be eatin alive wouldnt I?. I trust too much and would DEF get takin advantage of. Heck, I cant even manage FB .. Been hacked twice and scared to open up my wall again..LOL Just do DM and hangout on music pages. Well, you get to your tiktok veeedeeos and Im gotta warp my ass back to bout 67 and work on a couple...NEW ... tunes...LOL. (and vacuum up more water)... SHEESH , hasnt stopped rainin yet??? 

The rain also has been falling non stop here also but I like it :) soo you could definitely join tiktok it's not quite like FB you have much less interactions. I'd kinda compare it to here minus being anonymous, you'd have an endless timeline showing fun videos you know cooking, modeling, singing, music, fashion a whole lot it's not just for young people you'd actually be super how many older people are tiktokers lol if that's a word you'll do fine there I hope you give it a try.

The rain also has been falling non stop here also but I like it :) soo you could definitely join tiktok it's not quite like FB you have much less interactions. I'd kinda compare it to here minus being anonymous, you'd have an endless timeline showing fun videos you know cooking, modeling, singing, music, fashion a whole lot it's not just for young people you'd actually be super how many older people are tiktokers lol if that's a word you'll do fine there I hope you give it a try.

After using tiktok for a while and based on videos you like it will mostly show those types of videos and it's easy to manage. It's ok I'm thankful for all the help you offered. I must make it clear that not all days are bad sometimes me and my parents laugh about things and talk possibly twice every month yea.

After using tiktok for a while and based on videos you like it will mostly show those types of videos and it's easy to manage. It's ok I'm thankful for all the help you offered. I must make it clear that not all days are bad sometimes me and my parents laugh about things and talk possibly twice every month yea. 

Less interaction? WAAAAAA! From what your describing it sounds like YOUTUBE..LOL. Youtube USED to be GREAT back in 90s cause you could message ppl, and have a more personalized forum. Just like instrgram. When it first came out, I thought COOL, maybe it will be like MYSPACE were I can upload WAV /Mp3 files of my tracks.... Nope, STEEEUPID pics DUMB veeedeeos..WAAAAAAA ! ... again.....LOL.. And again, Ive got YOUTUBE..Ive got about 10 decent yrs left so I want YOU to get those scholarships, get with the webmasters of this Kooky generation and create a platform with all the crap IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII want...LOL Actually Myspace was pretty cool. I got bad viruses from there though. Thanks for the info though but honestly, Id need some one here to walk we thru the do's / donts of setting up a page cause like I was sayin, FB is still only like 75% complete..LOL.Good to hear about your folks and you interacting!!!. I think thers too many sites... It would be like me in the 70s havin 3-4 freinds, per all 50 states, get with in 5-10 mi of each of them to talk by CB radio, maybe meet in person...LOL Gas was only .46$ a gal in 76 but SHEEESH,having to visit all 50 states in a week just to keep up with friends.. Kinda like you today. SO MANY sites flooded w/ ppl. I couldnt keep up....OK OK, IM hoppin back in the Delorean, fluxing that capacitor,headin back where I belong...LOL But before I do, i WILL at least, check it out. Headin W bout an Hr from here to pick up my band jacket from 84. The original wore out in 97, Mom called and had my another one custom made like the original, NOW, I found that this seamstress was still ALIVE ..LOL and was able to make my 3rd jacket! Cant wait to see it! Hope your havin a good skewl day! (if the fire alarm goes off right b4 6th period, that will have been ME , w/ my special touch , setting it off..LOL)

Less interaction? WAAAAAA! From what your describing it sounds like YOUTUBE..LOL. Youtube USED to be GREAT back in 90s cause you could message ppl, and have a more personalized forum. Just like instrgram. When it first came out, I thought COOL, maybe it will be like MYSPACE were I can upload WAV /Mp3 files of my tracks.... Nope, STEEEUPID pics DUMB veeedeeos..WAAAAAAA ! ... again.....LOL.. And again, Ive got YOUTUBE..Ive got about 10 decent yrs left so I want YOU to get those scholarships, get with the webmasters of this Kooky generation and create a platform  with all the crap IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII want...LOL Actually Myspace was pretty cool. I got bad viruses from there though. Thanks for the info though but honestly, Id need some one here to walk we thru the do's / donts of setting up a page cause like I was sayin, FB is still only like 75% complete..LOL.Good to hear about your folks and you interacting!!!. I think thers too many sites... It would be like me in the 70s havin 3-4 freinds, per all 50 states, get with in 5-10 mi of each of them to talk by CB radio, maybe meet in person...LOL Gas was only .46$ a gal in 76 but SHEEESH,having to visit all 50 states in a week just to keep up with friends.. Kinda like you today. SO MANY sites flooded w/ ppl. I couldnt keep up....OK OK, IM hoppin back in the Delorean, fluxing that capacitor,headin back where I belong...LOL But before I do, i WILL at least, check it out. Headin W  bout an Hr from here to pick up my band jacket from 84. The original wore out in 97, Mom called and had my another one custom made like the original, NOW, I found that this  seamstress was still ALIVE ..LOL and was able to make my 3rd jacket! Cant wait to see it! Hope your havin a good skewl day! (if the fire alarm goes off right b4 6th period, that will have been ME , w/ my special touch , setting it off..LOL)

Hey I've been wanting to write back for sometime but honestly I just feel drained............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ Tell me what's one of your most memorable moments

Hey I've been wanting to write back for sometime but honestly I just feel drained............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................ Tell me what's one of your most memorable moments 

Hey ! There she is! Are ya takin plenty of vitamin D? Even at your age , it can make a diff. In my "other" story I share the supps responsible for healing &amp; what I take now for maintainance to keep this ole carcass from ....DISINERGRATIN..LOL...Yeah, I was wonderin if my incessent teenage goofballness was wearin ya thin?..LOL (got remember ,Im not as mature as you (only 14..LOL) You think it wouldnt ya? Gosh, this time warping does a # on ya for sure.But, its prolly where Ill remain.Matter fact, thats where Ill be headin in lil while.Once I cross those 2 bridges, I travel 186K mi /sec for 45 yrs and Ill be back where belong for a while anyway...I would love to see what you'd do in 75..LOL..You'd have to sing, play cards,monopoly,watch me play pin pall..LOL Gonna be somewhat warm today and ridin that bike is the MOST important thing Im doing right now to be able to just walk..Go back to doc on 17th.. Tellin him LOOK ! no more cortiszone, it bees aint doin nuffin. I gotsta have a replacement!!!..wish me luck... Gosh??? Most memorable moment...Well? 1st time I had sex... Yeah, that would a good one to start with...I was all alone....LOL Come now, let me see alittle smile?.. (crickets...... churp......churp.......)That was funny in the (well you know...LOL) In your precious 70s!!!!!..Tryin to cheer ya up alittle.Ill be back this evening. Dont get much daylight so Ill gotsta get WARPIN. Hope its sunny where you are! get out and getcha some sunny D. :)

Hey ! There she is! Are ya takin plenty of vitamin D? Even at your age , it can make a diff. In my "other" story I share the supps responsible  for healing & what I take now for maintainance to keep this ole carcass from ....DISINERGRATIN..LOL...Yeah, I was wonderin if my incessent teenage goofballness was wearin ya thin?..LOL (got remember ,Im not as mature as you (only 14..LOL) You think it wouldnt ya? Gosh, this time warping does a # on ya for sure.But, its prolly where Ill remain.Matter fact, thats where Ill be headin in lil while.Once I cross those 2 bridges, I travel 186K mi /sec for 45 yrs and Ill be back where belong for a while anyway...I would love  to see what you'd do in 75..LOL..You'd have to sing, play cards,monopoly,watch me play pin pall..LOL Gonna be somewhat warm today and ridin that bike is the MOST important thing Im doing right now to be able to just walk..Go back to doc on 17th.. Tellin him LOOK ! no more cortiszone, it bees aint doin nuffin. I gotsta have a replacement!!!..wish me luck... Gosh??? Most memorable moment...Well? 1st time I had sex... Yeah, that would a good one to start with...I was all alone....LOL Come now, let me see alittle smile?.. (crickets...... churp......churp.......)That was funny in the  (well you know...LOL) In your precious 70s!!!!!..Tryin to cheer ya up alittle.Ill be back this evening. Dont get much daylight so Ill gotsta get  WARPIN. Hope its sunny where you are! get out and getcha some sunny D. :)

Hey I haven't been taking any but I'll see if I can get some. Lol no it's not wearing me thin if anything I look forward for it. Hope it goes great at the doctor etting that replacement and no more joint pain I mean you're only late 59ish lol. Lol I did laugh a little that's a good memorable moment I guess lol. Where I'm from it's a tropical climate so its sunny all year around well that and rain. Today also is a bright day. I'll probably later walk to the corner shop and get myself something that'll be my sun intake for the day 😊 ok I'll hear from you later so yea have a great day.

Hey I haven't been taking any but I'll see if I can get some. Lol no it's not wearing me thin if anything I look forward for it. Hope it goes great at the doctor etting that replacement and no more joint pain I mean you're only late 59ish lol. Lol I did laugh a little that's a good memorable moment I guess lol. Where I'm from it's a tropical climate so its sunny all year around well that and rain. Today also is a bright day. I'll probably later walk to the corner shop and get myself something that'll be my sun intake for the day 😊 ok I'll hear from you later so yea have a great day.

Tropical? WAAAAAAAA!..LOL . Please ask Mom&amp;Dad if they could see their way clear to adopting another Teen. (teenior that is..LOL). I almost went to the Fla. Keys to live bout 10yrs ago to play music but just didnt follow thru.The winter wont be too cold/snow this yr but the time change KILLS me.. Dark all the time.Yeah, well, you might not need supplemental D if the time change doesnt effect ya and your out in full sun 2-3 hrs a day.I dont take it during the summer cause Im out ALL the time. Winter, I really need to cause Im 59ishly tryin to be sss sss, that S word...LOL. I gotta remember what I write on here, not only you sees it..LOL . Ok, get ya tropical drink, lil cheesy umbrella in it, get comfy and Ill read ya another story. I guess there are many moments I could list...Id honestly rather tell ya about a time period I was most content/ ful filled / had pure joy in my life. I played w/ 3 well known artists in the 80s and each had their memorable moments of course from playin the first time in a HUGE arena (about 12,000) where my drums sounded like CANNONS going off. THAT was unforgettable. But back to this time period..Im gonna leave out names of those involved to protect their anomynity.I was between road bands and living w/ an older couple, who's kids were grown /away.They were like the last bands (serrogate parents) Was starvin to death, drinkin heavy, and wanted to try an get clean while kinda in their care. I was 25 , in pretty bad shape..LOL..Anyway, I put up an ad in a local music store and was hired by some local guys to play around 2 citys bout 50 min apart. OMG! the first job we landed was playin 6 nights a week at pretty good sized club. became the house band there and I was in HEAVEN. Practiced bout 3 days a week around 2- 4pm to keep fresh material comin in. THEN , got another job on SUN, playin on the water at a big restuarant with a huge boat dock from 1PM -7PM, a day gig for ppl eating coming in by boat. OMG!!! 7 days a week doing what I absolutely LOVE...LOL .Now, that in and of itself was rewarding enough but making freinds with some much less fortunate ppl , one being a vietnam vet,who was one of the gtr players was a priceless life learning lesson. This guy was poor, bout 8 yrs older than me, on a 2nd marriage w/ 2 lil kids , lived in a tiny apt, one light bulb hangin, blankets for curtains /drapes. had been sick/unemployed proir to the new gigs we'd gotten so they're living pretty much hand to mouth. Being the single guy, I was always invited to his lil place for dinner thru the week.. GEEZ, I felt like my god, Im another mouth to feed , please let me pay ya for this home cookin. He wouldnt hear of it..LOL.. Neck bone, dumplins, corn bread, greens grown out back is what we had most often. Food VERYcheap to make, and would stretch out for the growing youngins who were happy and didnt realize how poor they were.I leaned so much from that guy! how to fix/ do alotta things I didnt learn while young. Everyone else I played with and their friends, were living by meager means as well... Here Id been on the road since 17, had dinners often costing 150-250$, bottles of wine costing 300-400 $, beau coup $$$ spent flying / limos and I was my happiest, most content, well fed..LOL, musically happy/fulfilled, socially rewarding , PRICELESS lessons learned,during a 9 -10 month period living/ bonding with those who struggle most in this life. The band was starting to burn out at the 6 nighter job, so we were cut back to just FRI -SAT. Took a HUGE chunk of $$$ from everyone...Then , the SUN gig was ending. We were replaced by a DJ. (for telling of things to come by the 90s.....) OMG , Im gonna have to get a job here I guess doing anything...... The folks I was livin w/ were out at a local club that HAD road bands and at and the female lead singer had told them they were lookin for a drummer replacement for the next gig but would be about 300 mi away so the replacement would have to relocate...That night, I got in late, they had stayed up to tell me about this road job , and that I should take it b/c the band was really good... OMG!!! I cannot leave these ppl !!!!!!.. The next day, I took the job and had to leave the following day.. My vietnam vet buddy and I cried like BABYS while shootin pool. My god , Ive never felt such a gut wrenching sorrow and fear for how he was gonna make it now. I felt like I was runnin out on him... Didnt even sleep that night... loaded up my van, drinkin a whole 5th of "old grand dad 114" , I cried my way to the new city 330 mi away to start all over... Tried over the yrs to re gain contact with the vet and other guys, but to no avail. Even looked since the net was born...The best memorable priceless yr of my life!

Tropical? WAAAAAAAA!..LOL . Please ask Mom&Dad if they could see their way clear to adopting another Teen. (teenior that is..LOL). I almost went to the Fla. Keys to live bout 10yrs ago to play music but just didnt follow thru.The winter wont be too cold/snow this yr but the time change KILLS me.. Dark all the time.Yeah, well, you might not need supplemental D if the time change doesnt effect ya and your out in full sun 2-3 hrs a day.I dont take it during the summer cause Im out ALL the time. Winter, I really need to cause Im 59ishly tryin to be sss  sss, that S word...LOL. I gotta remember  what I write on here, not only you sees it..LOL . Ok, get ya tropical drink, lil cheesy umbrella in it, get comfy and Ill read ya another story. I guess there are many moments I could list...Id honestly rather tell ya about a time period I was most content/ ful filled / had pure joy in my life. I played w/ 3 well known artists in the 80s and each had their memorable moments of course from playin the first time in a HUGE arena (about 12,000) where my drums sounded like CANNONS going off. THAT was unforgettable. But back to this time period..Im gonna leave out names of those involved to protect their anomynity.I was between road bands and living w/ an older couple, who's kids were grown /away.They were like the last bands (serrogate parents) Was starvin to death, drinkin heavy, and wanted to try an get clean while kinda in their care. I was 25 , in pretty bad shape..LOL..Anyway, I put up an ad in a local music store and was hired by some local guys to play around 2 citys bout 50 min apart. OMG! the first job we landed was playin 6 nights a week at pretty good sized club. became the house band there and I was in HEAVEN. Practiced bout 3 days a week around 2- 4pm to keep fresh material comin in. THEN , got  another job on SUN, playin on the water at a big restuarant with a huge boat dock from 1PM -7PM, a day gig for ppl eating coming in by boat. OMG!!! 7 days a week doing what I absolutely LOVE...LOL .Now, that in and of itself was rewarding enough but making freinds with some much less fortunate ppl , one being a vietnam vet,who was one of the gtr players was a priceless life learning lesson. This guy was poor, bout 8 yrs older than me, on a 2nd marriage w/ 2 lil kids , lived in a tiny apt, one light bulb hangin, blankets for curtains /drapes. had been sick/unemployed proir to the new gigs we'd gotten so they're living pretty much hand to mouth. Being the single guy, I was always invited to his lil place for dinner thru the week.. GEEZ, I felt like my god, Im another mouth to feed , please let me pay ya for this home cookin. He wouldnt hear of it..LOL.. Neck bone, dumplins, corn bread, greens grown out back is what we had most often. Food VERYcheap to make, and would stretch out for the growing youngins who were happy and didnt realize how poor they were.I leaned so much from that guy! how to fix/ do alotta things I didnt learn while young. Everyone else I played with and their friends, were living by meager means as well... Here Id been on the road since 17, had dinners often costing 150-250$, bottles of wine costing 300-400 $, beau coup $$$ spent flying / limos and I was my happiest, most content, well fed..LOL, musically happy/fulfilled, socially rewarding , PRICELESS lessons learned,during a 9 -10 month period living/ bonding with those who struggle most in this life. The band was starting to burn out at the 6 nighter job, so we were cut back to just FRI -SAT. Took a HUGE chunk of $$$ from everyone...Then , the SUN gig was ending. We were replaced by a DJ. (for telling of things to come by the 90s.....) OMG , Im gonna have to get a job here I guess doing anything...... The folks I was livin w/ were out at a local club that HAD road bands and at and  the female lead singer had told them they were lookin for a drummer replacement for the next gig but would be about 300 mi away so the replacement would have to relocate...That night, I got in late, they had stayed up to tell me about this road job , and that I should take it b/c the band was really good... OMG!!!  I cannot leave these ppl !!!!!!.. The next day, I took the job and had to leave the following day.. My vietnam vet buddy and I cried like BABYS while shootin pool. My god , Ive never felt such a gut wrenching sorrow and fear for how he was gonna make it now. I felt like I was runnin out on him... Didnt even sleep that night... loaded up my van, drinkin a whole 5th of "old grand dad 114" , I cried my way to the new city 330 mi away to start all over... Tried over the yrs to re gain contact with the vet and other guys, but to no avail. Even  looked since the net was born...The best memorable priceless yr of my life!

Lol you'd hate it here. Well you're not too old to follow through even just a mini vacation right? 😂 lol I do know the s word lmao( laughing my ass off) sorry i don't know if you know the acronym😅 lol I try to picture you so let me describe lol everything maybe wrong but nothing beats a try I imagine you have long hair because why not? I mean like that's the style of musicians back then anyways to play with them weren't you nervous like and with soo much people ha I'd be shaking 🤭 it must have been good.You know they say if you do what you actually love you'll never work a day in your life so doing your music I can picture how happy you were in those moments must had been pretty good ;) and meeting people you never forget learning new things. I'm glad you helped them and was such good friends to them nowadays its HARD to even find genuine people. That 9 - 10 months just flew past didn't it lol time moves soo very fast when you're enjoying it. I'm sorry you had to leave and you cried together damn that's so moving a lot of men would show no such emotion because what society does to them. But I feel a good bawling makes anyone feel better. Do you remember his kids name if you do well I'm sure you tried searching them too. Well thank you for that story it was an emotional roller coaster lol happy one moment and sad the next but mostly happy you got to live your dream. I think others keep up with our conversations too lol cause it has quite a bit of views, what you think? Goodnight hope you sleep well Mr teenior lol

Lol you'd hate it here. Well you're not too old to follow through even just a mini vacation right? 😂 lol I do know the s word lmao( laughing my ass off) sorry i don't know if you know the acronym😅 lol I try to picture you so let me describe lol everything maybe wrong but nothing beats a try I imagine you have long hair because why not? I mean like that's the style of musicians back then anyways to play with them weren't you nervous like and with soo much people ha I'd be shaking 🤭 it must have been good.You know they say if you do what you actually love you'll never work a day in your life so doing your music I can picture how happy you were in those moments must had been pretty good ;) and meeting people you never forget learning new things. I'm glad you helped them and was such good friends to them nowadays its HARD to even find genuine people. That 9 - 10 months just flew past didn't it lol time moves soo very fast when you're enjoying it. I'm sorry you had to leave and you cried together damn that's so moving a lot of men would show no such emotion because what society does to them. But I feel a good bawling makes anyone feel better. Do you remember his kids name if you do well I'm sure you tried searching them too. Well thank you for that story it was an emotional roller coaster lol happy one moment and sad the next but mostly happy you got to live your dream. I think others keep up with our conversations too lol cause it has quite a bit of views, what you think? Goodnight hope you sleep well Mr teenior lol

Hey you! ...So?... I would hate it there?...(dont bet on it.....LOL).. Lessee Sun ,Surf, Sand. yr around.. 59ishly beautiful babes decked out in T backs roamin the beaches (EEK on 2nd thought?..LOL I know... thats mean...). Well, you woulda been right bout the hair a week ago...I WIEEESH I could were it long but it gets scraggily/ frizzyish up on top, where its thinnishly unpleasant. OH, I take pleeenty of Biotin , and it does help but???. Its not short now by no means but its a more 90s than 70s ME..LOL..Actually you'd be surprised about the effect an audience has on ya when it comes to performance. MUCH easier to play for 500-15000 than a small bar with 15, especially if its quiet. In 79, we were doing a "Tribute to Elvis" actual show on a supper club circuit and even behind the drum kit , I could hear ppls silverware clangin on the plates, glasses dinging, dressed like I was going to a wedding.(ruffle shirt/bow tie..LOL) OMG , I always feared if I hit a rim shot kinda shitty it would be "shame shame everybody knows your name"..LOL).. at 110DB, with 8000 ppl screamin... not so noticable..LOL. Your so right about that quotable quote and I feel VERY fortunate now ,speshally after experiencing 20yrs in this century, that I never had to work a day in my life, at least till 95.Then.... ENTER.. BILL GATES.... ENTER ...TURD IN PUNCH BOWL....DUMP IN PLAYHOUSE....MINE!!!...LOL Well, its not all bad. I never coulda been able to do what Im doing now w/o HIS 0s and 1s. I really hope you hit the ground runnin outta HS while your young and still fulla pee/vinegar (grand parents ever say that?..LOL),get some buliding blocks in place to secure a future doing what floats your boat. Oh Yeah, I know what lmao is but whats a akronm? Is like in OH?..LOL Back before emojis I got super quick at just LOL and since I LOL my ass off ALOT, its only fitting that I SCRRREAM it (yall under 30 doesnt likes that..LOL).. Yeah, I still feel the sadness inn my heart for the Vet. See other Vets struggling with the HORRIBLE treatment they recieve from the VA and makes me beyond furious. Now... you ladys' may "bawl" but We guys kinda shed a few tears here/ there....Believe that?. (swamp land in AZ ... you interested?..LOL)..Yeah, I honestly feel for ya girl b/c, the world, compared to pre 1995 is a more self absorbed, less empathetic/sympathitic,respectful,(self and others) more depressive, self loathing/depricating society than I ever thought imaginable. BUT!!!....I do see/hear about OFTEN... NOW...... since Covid...that we're gettin back to good ole 1955 (Back to the Future ..I LIVE for that goofy movie..LOL). I see young single mothers in my "timewarp" area w/ lilkinds playin on the jungle gyms, swings / BIG sandbox and SEW content for HRS. (no cell service here either.......) So I do have hope for you, that future hubby/kids.I think , spite what you young ppl have been "programmed"(by design...yeah..) to believe, Your realizing its OK to be HUMAN,and are getting out living the way "HUMANS" are meant to live insteada being an extension of a device emotionally controlled by 0s &amp;1s. Just tryin to shed some hope , based on what Ive witnessed first hand, that was different this summer.Yeah, LOL, I see one of my posts got its FIRST emoji too! (thank you kind person). Surprised that theres not more "head scratchin" emojs concern our back/forth banter (is this girl crazy??...LOL)...OH ..BTW, thanks for the well wishes for my dco app. TUE, Im gonna really SPILL about this knee, this leg is practically useless. (ought see gettin my bike outta my van ... not pretty ..LOL)...The radar is sayin RAIN ..WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, here in lil so I gotsa get to the time warp POE (port of entry..LOL) soon so I can catch up on HS crap in 75. You want any vinyl? I could mail it too ya..It would be in good shape?...Maybe? ... I was pretty rough on my records..LOL... Catch up w/ ya lil later! 3-2-1......Poooof!!

Hey you! ...So?... I would hate it there?...(dont bet on it.....LOL).. Lessee Sun ,Surf, Sand. yr around.. 59ishly  beautiful babes decked out in T backs roamin the beaches (EEK on 2nd thought?..LOL I know... thats mean...). Well, you woulda been right bout the hair a week ago...I WIEEESH I could were it long but it gets scraggily/ frizzyish up on top, where its thinnishly unpleasant. OH, I take pleeenty of Biotin , and it does help but???. Its not short now by no means but its a more 90s than 70s ME..LOL..Actually you'd be surprised about the effect an audience has on ya when it comes to performance. MUCH easier to play for 500-15000 than a small bar with 15, especially if its quiet. In 79, we were doing a "Tribute to Elvis" actual show on a supper club circuit and even behind the drum kit , I could hear ppls silverware clangin on the plates, glasses dinging, dressed like I was going to a wedding.(ruffle shirt/bow tie..LOL) OMG , I always feared if I hit a rim shot kinda shitty it would be "shame shame everybody knows your name"..LOL).. at 110DB, with 8000 ppl screamin... not so noticable..LOL. Your so right about that quotable quote and I feel VERY fortunate now ,speshally after experiencing 20yrs in this century, that I  never had to work a day in my life, at least till 95.Then.... ENTER.. BILL GATES.... ENTER ...TURD IN PUNCH BOWL....DUMP IN PLAYHOUSE....MINE!!!...LOL Well, its not all bad. I never coulda been able to do what Im doing now w/o HIS 0s and 1s. I really hope you hit the ground runnin outta HS while your young and still  fulla pee/vinegar (grand parents ever say that?..LOL),get some buliding blocks in place to secure a future doing what floats your boat. Oh Yeah, I know what lmao is but whats a akronm? Is like in OH?..LOL Back before emojis I got super quick at just LOL and since I LOL my ass off ALOT, its only fitting that I SCRRREAM it (yall under 30 doesnt likes that..LOL).. Yeah, I still feel the sadness inn my heart for the Vet. See other Vets struggling with the HORRIBLE treatment they recieve from the VA and makes me beyond furious. Now... you ladys' may "bawl" but We guys kinda shed a few tears here/ there....Believe that?. (swamp land in AZ ... you interested?..LOL)..Yeah, I honestly feel for ya girl b/c, the world, compared to pre 1995 is a more self absorbed, less empathetic/sympathitic,respectful,(self and others)  more depressive, self loathing/depricating society than I ever thought imaginable. BUT!!!....I do see/hear about OFTEN... NOW...... since Covid...that we're gettin back to good ole 1955 (Back to the Future ..I LIVE for that goofy movie..LOL). I see young single mothers in my "timewarp" area w/ lilkinds playin on the jungle gyms, swings / BIG sandbox and SEW content for HRS. (no cell service here either.......) So I do have hope for you, that future hubby/kids.I think , spite what you young ppl have been "programmed"(by design...yeah..) to believe, Your realizing its OK to be HUMAN,and are getting out living the way "HUMANS" are meant to live insteada being an extension of a device emotionally controlled by 0s &1s. Just tryin to shed some hope , based on what Ive witnessed first hand, that was different this summer.Yeah, LOL, I see one of my posts got its FIRST emoji too! (thank you kind person). Surprised that theres not more "head scratchin" emojs concern our back/forth banter (is this girl crazy??...LOL)...OH ..BTW, thanks for the well wishes for my dco app. TUE, Im gonna really SPILL about this knee, this leg is practically useless. (ought see gettin my bike outta my van ... not pretty ..LOL)...The radar is sayin RAIN ..WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, here in lil so I gotsa get to the time warp POE (port of entry..LOL) soon so I can catch up on HS crap in 75. You want any vinyl? I could mail it too ya..It would be in good shape?...Maybe? ... I was pretty rough on my records..LOL... Catch up w/ ya lil later! 3-2-1......Poooof!!

Heyy ain't no surfing here lol the waves aren't so big only during a hurricane lol but the beaches top tier. So I'm right about the hair😌 well that's true when hundreds or thousands are screaming and having the time of their life they ain't got no time looking for any mistakes lol The truth is I don't really know what I want to do soo its whatever I'm good at law I do a pre university course so probably I'll continue. lol yes I saw that emoji response too. Can you believe I'm so young and have joints pain too lol well only when I'm getting up lol😂. Finally I'd love one but I ain't got anything to play it on sorry lol until next time 👋

Heyy ain't no surfing here lol the waves aren't so big only during a hurricane lol but the beaches top tier. So I'm right about the hair😌 well that's true when hundreds or thousands are screaming and having the time of their life they ain't got no time looking for any mistakes lol The truth is I don't really know what I want to do soo its whatever I'm good at law I do a pre university course so probably I'll continue. lol yes I saw that emoji response too. Can you believe I'm so young and have joints pain too lol well only when I'm getting up lol😂. Finally I'd love one but I ain't got anything to play it on sorry lol until next time 👋

"Top Tier."...Hmmm? (I know what it means, wheres it come from?..LOL)..Reading your last message, Im thinkin where she get that? Have never heard it till now. My buddy over in Corby UK says "Top Shelf". I guess their are still plenty of 59ishly fit dudes who DO surf but Id be on "Babe Watch"..LOL Youve hearda BAYwatch right? They got that from 70s teens. They didnt wanna appear sexist so it was changed to Bay..LOL Well young lady, Im gonna haveta come down there and get those poor ole akin joints on a BIKE. Ill just bet I could out run ya .....for the 1st 50yrs..LOL.Gotta give me 30min to warm up the knee.Yeah its funny that the youngest boy I worked with (22),, before we were ALL let go at my last FT job, was ordering vinyl LPs from the net. Here he has technology out the ying yang with 32 bit /96 KHZ sample rate BUT, after listen to old albums on 60s tech audio gear, HE NOW wants vinyl, and bought a TT/ reciever.....Most under 40 will never experience analog audio. Has to do with the EMO feqs (bout 800HZ- 3KHZ) and how the music emotionally effect us. Digital SERVERLY limits those "feel good " feqs.. OK , your audio tech lesson for the day..LOL (be sure the TEACH gives you 1.5 credits today)...LOL. Just from talkin to ya, I kinda DID vision you studying/ going into something in a professional setting. (suites/skirts)..Are you a CSI / Law&amp;Order binger? I think wimmins make better lawyers in most practicing categorys. I think ya need good R brain ( ME) as well as L... (not ME..LOL). When I was teaching gtr , I studied up on the workings of the L &amp; R brain and how best we internalize (not memorize) musical instrument playing. My findings were an eye opener for sure!. Well, w/ only 2 old crips here at the house now since Moms passing in July. SOMEBODY has got be the maid and since I walk slightly better than oldman (84).....,guess who THAT is?...LOL..Catch up with ya leetlelater!

"Top Tier."...Hmmm? (I know what it means, wheres it come from?..LOL)..Reading your last message, Im thinkin where she get that? Have never heard it till now. My buddy over in Corby UK says "Top Shelf". I guess their are still plenty of 59ishly fit dudes who DO surf but Id be on "Babe Watch"..LOL  Youve hearda BAYwatch right? They got that from 70s teens. They didnt wanna appear sexist so it was changed to Bay..LOL Well young lady, Im gonna haveta come down there and get those poor ole akin joints on a BIKE. Ill just bet I could out run ya .....for the 1st 50yrs..LOL.Gotta give me 30min to warm up the  knee.Yeah its funny that the youngest boy I worked with (22),, before we were ALL let go at my last FT job, was ordering vinyl LPs from the net. Here he has technology out the ying yang with 32 bit /96 KHZ sample rate BUT, after listen to old albums on 60s tech audio gear, HE NOW wants vinyl, and bought   a TT/ reciever.....Most under 40 will never  experience analog audio. Has to do with the EMO feqs (bout 800HZ- 3KHZ) and how the music emotionally effect us. Digital SERVERLY limits those "feel good " feqs.. OK , your audio tech lesson for the day..LOL (be sure  the TEACH gives you 1.5 credits today)...LOL. Just from talkin to ya, I kinda DID vision you studying/ going into something in a professional setting. (suites/skirts)..Are you a CSI / Law&Order binger? I think wimmins make better lawyers in most practicing categorys. I think ya need good R brain ( ME) as well as L... (not ME..LOL). When I was teaching gtr , I studied up on the workings of the L & R brain and how best we internalize (not memorize) musical instrument playing. My findings were an eye opener for sure!. Well, w/ only 2 old crips here at the house now since Moms passing in July. SOMEBODY has got be the maid and since I walk slightly better than oldman (84).....,guess who THAT is?...LOL..Catch up with ya leetlelater!

Hey about last year was also the first hearing the term where other teenagers uses it to describe anything elite or you know extraordinary. Lol yes I've heard about bay watch I watched the movie starring Dwayne Johnson and trust they are going to be lots of babes out there and it would be soo easy to swipe up one cause they LOVE tourists lol and you probably could out run me lol I have not one athletic bone in my body, without even the warm up. Well then since listening to music that way gives a better feeling I'll have to add it to my bucket list ( which I don't have I might make one tho) I'll most definitely give it a try whenever it is I can. I don't really watch law and order I watch how to get away with murder. This may be a personal question did you get a family of your own. Sorry for your lost my grandma passed last year around that time too it didn't affect me much or any at all she was an absolute bitch to me once my parents left me there knowing I hated it there and she woke up and basically told me to leave her house i couldn't I hardly know the place and it was midnight, she called me a lot of name bitch included and the thing is I didn't even speak to the woman I'd stay as far as I could my family is just all kinds of messed up. Lol and cleaning for yourself and another I wouldn't consider a maid. By the way one of my middle name is Amari you could call me that anyways I've also got some of my manh chores to do so I'll see you later👋

Hey about last year was also the first hearing the term where other teenagers uses it to describe anything elite or you know extraordinary. Lol yes I've heard about bay watch I watched the movie starring Dwayne Johnson and trust they are going to be lots of babes out there and it would be soo easy to swipe up one cause they LOVE tourists lol and you probably could out run me lol I have not one athletic bone in my body, without even the warm up. Well then since listening to music that way gives a better feeling I'll have to add it to my bucket list ( which I don't have I might make one tho) I'll  most definitely give it a try whenever it is I can. I don't really watch law and order I watch how to get away with murder. This may be a personal question did you get a family of your own. Sorry for your lost my grandma passed last year around that time too it didn't affect me much or any at all she was an absolute bitch to me once my parents left me there knowing I hated it there and she woke up and basically told me to leave her house i couldn't I hardly know the place and it was midnight, she called me a lot of name bitch included and the thing is I didn't even speak to the woman I'd stay as far as I could my family is just all kinds of messed up. Lol and cleaning for yourself and another I wouldn't consider a maid. By the way one of my middle name is Amari you could call me that anyways I've also got some of my manh chores to do so I'll see you later👋

Amari ! such a pretty name girl.. Hadnt heard it before so I looked up its meaning and origin. WOW, you musta been in a hurry writing the last post cause my poor eyes are just now UN crossing..LOL. Turning sss sss 59ishly has also killed the vision a bit makin text on the ole flat screen hard to cypher w/o alittle bitta break in sentences..LOL.Now if it had been like a saying , like this Ole 70s favorite: twoallrottenfattysewersaucesmellycheesepalepicklesgarliconaweekoldroll, then it would been app pro po..LOL...Now... I want you to learn this "saying" well....Then walk into Mc Donalds and say it under 4 sec...LOL. Ya gotta put a quarter note beat to it like TWO all ROTTEN fattys SEWer sauce SMELLy cheese PALE pickles GARlic on a WEEK old ROLL, with caps keepin the beat 1-2-3-4..LOL..I can still do it , BUT.... never go to mickey Ds anymore..LOL... Now.... manh chores? heres what I get from TEEN WIKI "medically assisted nutrition and hydration".... that cant be right?...LOL..GEEZ, I resonded to a post the other day having so many teen/ tiktok/instagram abbvs that I was wiki ing myself silly to get woke on this new craze that has me "dazed and confused"...(led zep circa 68).. Gosh girl, such a light year difference on how we grew up. I cant even imagine having to be strong enough to endure alotta what youve been thru so early on.Thanks for the condolences for Mom...Not sure you woulda liked her, as a teem mon "then" though.......LOL.... She was alittle strict too.. I had alotta the same battles as you as a teen , but I was a hellion askin for it alotta times. Mom woulda been on ya full time about your health as she was me even till her dying week.NOW, if ya coulda met her while in her 80s,she woulda been alittle easier on an 18 yr old..LOL BUT, still on to take vitamin etc..LOL..well, Ive already revealed alotta , some in other articles about my past and Im tryin to keep it anonymous but yeah, Ive got a son 43..Got married too early at 17, the big D at 20 while on the road... Heavy drinkin, depression,staying gone for 33 yrs didnt make for a very healthy family life...many regrets in that area so I dont talk about it much.We make our choices and have to live w/ them. Got alot done today on this ole house spite being practically one legged..LOL.. Gotsta gets up OILY to go to the knee doc and I didnt get to ride today so its really STEEEF tonite :(.... Gonna go back down to the studio for alil while and chill, give these ole eyes a rest..LOL. Till next time!

Amari ! such a pretty name girl.. Hadnt heard it before so I looked up its meaning and origin. WOW, you musta been in a hurry writing the last post cause my poor eyes are just now UN crossing..LOL. Turning sss   sss  59ishly has also killed the vision a bit makin text on the ole flat screen hard to cypher w/o alittle bitta break in sentences..LOL.Now if it had been like a saying , like this Ole 70s favorite:  twoallrottenfattysewersaucesmellycheesepalepicklesgarliconaweekoldroll,  then it would been app pro po..LOL...Now... I want you to learn this "saying" well....Then walk into Mc Donalds and say it under 4 sec...LOL. Ya gotta put a quarter note beat to it like TWO all ROTTEN fattys SEWer sauce SMELLy cheese PALE pickles GARlic on a WEEK old ROLL, with caps keepin the beat 1-2-3-4..LOL..I can still do it , BUT.... never go to mickey Ds anymore..LOL... Now....  manh chores? heres what I get from  TEEN WIKI  "medically assisted nutrition and hydration".... that cant be right?...LOL..GEEZ, I resonded to a post the other day having so many teen/ tiktok/instagram abbvs that I was wiki ing myself silly to get woke on this new craze that has me "dazed and confused"...(led zep circa 68).. Gosh girl, such a light year difference on how we grew up. I cant even imagine having to be strong enough to endure alotta what youve been thru so early on.Thanks for the condolences for Mom...Not sure you woulda liked her, as a teem mon "then" though.......LOL.... She was alittle strict too.. I had alotta the same battles as you as a teen , but I was a hellion askin for it alotta times. Mom woulda been on ya full time about your health as she was me even till her dying week.NOW, if ya coulda met her while in her 80s,she woulda been alittle easier on an 18 yr old..LOL BUT, still on to take vitamin etc..LOL..well, Ive already revealed alotta , some in other articles about my past and Im tryin to keep it anonymous but yeah, Ive got a son 43..Got married too early at 17, the big D at 20 while on the road... Heavy drinkin, depression,staying gone for 33 yrs didnt make for a very healthy family life...many regrets in that area so I dont talk about it much.We make our choices and have to live w/ them. Got alot done today on this ole house spite being practically one legged..LOL.. Gotsta gets up OILY to go to the knee doc and I didnt get to ride today so its really STEEEF tonite :(.... Gonna go back down to the studio for alil while and chill, give these ole eyes a rest..LOL. Till next time!

My mistake it should have read many chores lol I'm even surprised there's a site teen wiki lol the fact you found something for what I spelled wrong means the site is not so good. Wow 17 that mean I should be cuffed by now lol I'm joking it was pretty young for real, sorry about the D and the emotions and feelings you endured ok you take care.

My mistake it should have read many chores  lol I'm even surprised there's a site teen wiki lol the fact you found something for what I spelled wrong means the site is not so good. Wow 17 that mean I should be cuffed by now lol I'm joking it was pretty young for real, sorry about the D and the emotions and feelings you endured ok you take care. 

Well, let me clarify about TEEN WICKED .. Oh I mean TEEN WEEKKEE..LOL.. Theres not really a site per say but its more like sites that depict urban dictionary terms of what milennials are using now on tiktok, instagram etc. You know what fan girl is?..new one for me...LOL Buncha others I had to look up as well just to keep up on here. (it aint easy being me in the 21st..LOL) OH and looky here .....Amari made SURE Id have another one to look up...... "cuffed"..LOL.. HA HA.......LOL..ya know you DONT see you generation gettin "HITCHED" (there .... back at ya with some 70s WIKI..LOL) like ya did in my day... You guys have this thang called "hookin up" which is all the rage now .. Kinda started in the late 90s I think???.. Its gettin you guys thru your 20s anyway. Im gonna respond to the current article about it here...Theres a YOUNG Cat , who's a hopeless romantic like ME, and Im gonna kinda piggyback on his post. OH , wanna share my news about the doc visit today... I go for surgery in JAN for a knee replacement... When I heard all that was gonna be involved I was like EEEEK!...The post PT involved is gonna be PAINFUL. I told him my life is useless NOW not being able to carry 61 lb speakers up steps to load in the van to gig solo jobs so??? Its gotta be done... Gonna try to lose 5-10 more lbs.... 173 now, which is not too heavy but know Ill fare better the lighter I am...Anyway, ya didnt write much, hope everythings going OK?..... Gonna talk to a good friend since 79 on FAKEBOOK in lil while bout all this (she's a retired nurse). Ill catch up w/ya leetlelater!

Well, let me clarify about TEEN WICKED .. Oh I mean TEEN WEEKKEE..LOL.. Theres not really a site per say but its more like sites that depict urban dictionary terms of what milennials are using now on tiktok, instagram etc. You know what fan girl is?..new one for me...LOL Buncha others I had to look up as well just to keep up on here. (it aint easy being me in the 21st..LOL) OH and looky here .....Amari made SURE Id have another one to look up...... "cuffed"..LOL.. HA HA.......LOL..ya know you DONT see you generation gettin "HITCHED" (there .... back at ya with some 70s WIKI..LOL) like ya did in my day... You guys have this thang called "hookin up" which is all the rage now .. Kinda started in the late 90s I think???.. Its gettin you guys thru your 20s anyway. Im gonna respond to the current article about it here...Theres a YOUNG Cat , who's a hopeless romantic like ME, and Im gonna kinda piggyback on  his post.  OH , wanna share my news about the doc visit today... I go for surgery in JAN for a knee replacement... When I heard all that was gonna be involved I was like EEEEK!...The  post PT involved is gonna be PAINFUL. I told him my life is useless NOW not being able to carry 61 lb speakers up steps to load in the van to gig solo jobs so??? Its gotta be done... Gonna try to lose 5-10 more lbs.... 173 now, which is not too heavy but know Ill fare better the lighter I am...Anyway, ya didnt write much, hope everythings going OK?..... Gonna talk to a good friend since 79 on FAKEBOOK in lil while bout all this (she's a retired nurse). Ill catch up w/ya leetlelater!

Hey I just made a new post check it out its called "to my penpal" see you there........................................................................................................................ trying to get it to 300 so it can post.................................................................................................................................................

Hey I just made a new post check it out its called "to my penpal" see you there........................................................................................................................ trying to get it to 300 so it can post.................................................................................................................................................

Burden is nothing but feeling alone .No.......you are not feeling so.100% people are feeling alone now a days in a certain stage of life. Actually we have to learn from the childhood how to think and also the art of living . Separation ourselves from others is the biggest problem of present era. We have lack of CRITICAL THINKING ABILITY and HONESTY that's why we differentiate people from other by various dimensions. We should spread our hand to others. We need to change our education system drastically to reach at the highest point of human values. Our political system is mostly responsible for not to change our education systems.We need to make leaders well higher educated and ethical person not an illiterate person.

Burden is nothing but feeling alone .No.......you are not feeling so.100% people are feeling alone now a days in a certain stage of life. Actually we have to learn from the childhood how to think and also the art of living . Separation ourselves from others is the biggest problem of present era. We have lack of CRITICAL THINKING ABILITY and HONESTY that's why we differentiate people from other by various dimensions. We should spread our hand to others. We need to change our education system drastically to reach at the highest point of human values. Our political system is mostly responsible for not to change our education systems.We need to make leaders well higher educated and ethical person not an illiterate person. 