I transferred to a new school. I thought it would be easy. From elementary to high school I'm always in section one, the cream of the crop. So I did not put effort in studying because I pass using only my stock knowledge and pure luck. But now, Im surrounded with genius people. I was left behind. Growing up I thought I'm already fit to be called a brainy student. But I'm not. I struggle with math, science and english. YES, THE BIG THREE. But somehow I still pass those subjects... Not in high grades tho. Right now, I just feel useless. I don't think I'll be a good use for my mom and my family. It's hard to be stupid. It's hard to live not knowing how to solve math. Hard to live with expectations. I want to die.