Life of whoredoms

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I confess, I’ve been a big hoe all my life. I was molested when I was really young, I told my mom and she still let the molestors stay at our house, so I stopped telling her. From then on I was molested by males and females. I’ve had sexual relations with females outside of molestation but only when I was a little girl. As I got older, in my mind sexual stuff became a thing to be enjoyed by the guy and something I felt like I had to go along with. My mind would be completely spaced out and I would feel zero pleasure. When I lost my virginity at 18 it got worse from there. Zero sexual pleasure, but I felt like I had to have sex. I was extremely morally loose, and I noticed I would look at a guy and want to have sex with him, and it will end up happening. And, soon after sex or sexual contact something will happen to break us up. At a point I went into prostitution to raise money. I’ve had sexual relations for money even outside the prostitute phase. As a prostitute I was having sex with sometimes 2 or 3 guys per day. I made so much money in a short period of time. Prostitution is basically exploiting men’s need for sex. Of all the sins in my life, my sexual sins are probably the most. I’ve scammed people too, and stolen money. I’ve lied big lies just to get my way. I even lied that my former friend’s dad tried to rape me because I didn’t want to stay at their house. I was on and off all about some dude for 4 years and almost went crazy when it all ended. I really hurt God by this, because that guy became an idol. I’ve done so many bad things in my life and I’m glad to let it out. I have found the person I’m destined to marry, we decided to get married a while ago, and so this hoeing must stop. I still feel like but haven’t done it in a while. I want to actually feel sexual pleasure and cum, I’ve been faking moans and peeing on dudes. I would drink a lot of water before so it smells like water but it’s pee. I want to enjoy sex like a normal person. And I want to be perfectly healthy. Pray for me.