I thought I had at least two people in this world I could trust. My mom. And my sister. turns out I only have one. You can probably guess which it is. But I'll kill the surprise. My mom is still on my side. I wish I was dead. And I bought stuff so I can do it. I can make it happen. I bought a fuckton of beer. I would have bought vodka, but you can't get vodka here on Sunday. And I bought Nyquil and Tylenol. It's enough. That will end it if I'm ready. I just gotta decide. A bottle of Tylenol will turns the lights out forever.Nyquil will help me sleep through it.