I’m in my late 20s and I’ve never had a boyfriend. I’ve been told it’s because I come off as quite aggressive and independent so most guys don’t like that, they say. I’m fat too but the society’s acceptable type of fat if you know what I mean. People say I have a beautiful face. Lose a little weight and someone will pursue me for sure. In all honesty I’m quite fine with my solitude. I opened myself up to a guy more than a year ago. He’s so kind, and cute, and attentive, and ‘comfy’. We talked for a long time so I thought he liked me too. I mean, would you talk to someone everyday for over a year if you didn’t? And compliment them? And make them feel special?To that someone I can’t have:I really thought I had a chance. I thought maybe you were the one who liked me for me. I would’ve improved myself for you. I could try to be who you want me to be if you had only given me a chance. I can lose weight for you!! I can be more positive and understanding for you!! We can help each other grow!!! When I confessed to you about my feelings, I was so sure you would return my affection back. It broke my heart when you said you didn’t know I felt that way. It sucks so bad that all I got was a thank you and that you appreciate my feelings. I laughed and even joked when I knew how you truly felt but man, it sucked so bad. Can you at least tell me why you don’t like me? Can you at least tell me why you treated me so? I never asked for it. I want to hate you so I can just delete you in all my social media and forget but I feel like that would be unfair. I keep on wondering why?? Why not me?? What’s wrong with me?? If it’s my weight I wish you would just tell me so I’d know how shallow you are and I can just hate you!!!!!! Wish you would just tell me it’s all just a game to you so I can paint you as a monster. Why do I still like you!!! I don’t want to like you anymore!!! How do I let you go???