Ever time I log in to go to school sometime we get but into break out rooms these people never talk to me they think I’m weird loser ugly fat dumb a stupid bitch and then they ask the teacher to switch groups then I’m left alone and when they switch there always chitter chater I have no friends they all left me for being a loser not popular I’ve told them I hate them because they always left me out is games and shit and obviously they would snitch and I would haft to be the one to apologize I’ve never had someone to love me I remember when my mom told me she hated me for expressing my self she took me to a therapist and she told my sisters not to talk to me because I was supposedly “crazy” I never thought I was crazy...am I? My mom also thinks I’m going through a “phase” for being pansexual I’ve always thought to my self “whats wrong with you why do people hate you eh? Why are you different why can’t you just be pretty like the others why can’t you just be them? They have blue eyes pretty blond hair boobs! An ass they could be models! All you can modal is a trash can why!?” I always avoid looking into the mirror why do they even exist? Why would I want to look at my self in the mirror. you know what I’ve never heard from my mum “I’m proud of you!” Every time I get a good grade it’s always “I want to see more of this ok? You failed science get better your sisters never get bed grades why you?” I never complain because then it’s always “stop talking back” “I give you everything you want why are you like this!?” “Your not the only one with problems!” “This is life deal with it!” I know I know I’m not the only one but I just wanna be happy again. I know you give me a lot of thing but it’s not what you did there’s other parts in life ya know! Plus you never gave me love. Yes it’s life but I don’t wanna sit here and live my life crying every day we only live once! What’s wrong with me?...people think it’s only for attention....I don’t know you tell me.