My birthday is coming up in a few weeks and just like every year, i'm feeling very depressed.
It makes me sad to think that i'm going to be 20 years old, yet i still have no close friends to celebrate with.
I'm going to be 20, yet i have never had a boyfriend, never even felt a connection with any other person for that matter.
I'm going to be 20 years old, and i'm lonely as fuck.
I think i have always been lonely, being introverted and having social anxiety on top of that, I kinda had no choice growing up but to be this closed up loner.
I long for someone to be there for me and to just make me feel like i belong with someone, like i am not this good-for-nothing girl who appears stone cold from the outside yet craves affection everyday from the inside.
I don't even know why i'm writing this, or to whom, but i have no one to talk to.