So I just finished high school and am about to graduate. I guess I should feel happy right? Well I don't. In fact, I feel the complete opposite.So for all my years at high school, I have had no friends. I have been alone and have always felt invisible. They were the hardest years of my life. I would watch people laughing and having fun together hanging out with friends. It was like every single day a single piece of me was ripped out and the black hole inside continued to grow bigger until it engulfed me and now I just want everything to end. So I guess I should feel happy that I am done with high school. I am leaving the place that treated me like I was invisible. Like I was a ghost. But for some reason I feel weird about leaving. I feel as though I am going to miss it. And I know that's completely normal after graduating, but what do I have that's worth missing? I have no friends to say goodbye to. I have nothing. I feel like I am going through graduation alone. I have nobody to celebrate with and that is just making me realize how lonely I really am. There are times I just don't know if I can endure the pain any longer. Sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up.