I feel like I have no one. I have always been weird. Or sad. I was always alone as a kid. Shy. Awkward. Quiet. I acted like it was ok but inside I wanted to be anyone else. I wanted people to see me. To love me. I wanted to be perfect, and I lived in a fantasy world. I hated coming out of it. I dont know if i am a good person or a terrible person. I dont know if I am a person at all. But I am weak. I am a lesbian. I need attention, and I have always hated myself. In a very self-centered way. I want to be good. Right now, I feel like dying.