I've been having a hard time lately. I'm very introverted so I don't have many friends. At school I'll just sit in the hallways and look at my phone to avoid talking to people. I don't really want to talk to anyone a lot of the time, but I also get really lonely. This happened a little while ago, but it was my birthday and I woke up with high expectations. All day, I waited for birthday messages from my friends, but there weren't any. Instead, they were all posting about national dog day. It really hurts to think that all of your friends don't remember your birthday, but they remember a holiday I'd never even heard of before. I often feel like I no longer matter to anyone, that no one would even notice if I left. I don't know what to do anymore.
The feeling of loneliness is really painful, and so is the feeling that your friends don’t truly care. It’s a pain that I wouldn’t wish on a war criminal, let alone a random student. I can’t tell you how much pain I felt in my own years in highschool, as I was also an introvert and, frankly and personally, a loser.
All I can say to you is 1) the feelings of loneliness are amplified in highschool where you feel that you need to be connected to others at all times. In the real world, with 18+ year olds, there is no need for constant interaction. People eat lunch alone, go to movies alone, navigate the world alone, and it has no impact on their worth or friend count.
and 2) that one day this will pass. There’s no way to know when, but suddenly you’ll have a grin on your face, looking at a text from a new friend or partner. It comes quickly and is a large relief to a empty soul. One day, highschool will be over, and you’ll meet plenty of people in work or at college. It may not be freshman year, but it will happen.