Ever since my mum died last month, I haven’t exactly been myself. Couldn’t get myself enough time to actually grieve. Yes I have cried I feel like it wasn’t enough. Right now I am drained, had exams back to back no time to allow myself to fully grieve. I laugh and joke around with the few people who text but that’s all there is. Deep down I am not okay, mentally I’m not okay and that scares me. I feel like someday I will pop up and that scares me. I feel like I’m in denial, yes I know she’s gone but my mind still thinks she’s there. Now I’m scared of telling people how I feel cause truth be told no one cares. We all have our own problems and get that. So all i really need is me I guess.