Living with bpd, ptsd, ocd, psychosis. Every time I relapse back into that deep dark hole, the more I lose the fight to live.
people say keep fighting but how can you find the strength to continuously fight a losing battle everyday? How can you regrow that hope inside when every time you think you’ve reached a new height, it all dissolves faster than it grew? It feels heavier and heavier each time and I want to let go now, but they want me to carry on this battle for them.
My cry for help is over I don’t want help, I just want peace now how can I get them to let me go? Someone asked me why do you make it out to be so bad surely it’s not you can keep going, I told them would you ask a terminal cancer patient to keep fighting just for you? Or would you rather they be at peace? Because mental disorders are almost like a cancer to your mental health some it’s terminal, others not. Please stop asking them to fight when they no longer can just offer them comfort and bring them peace.