I just found out I am pregnant with an alcoholic pill popper's child. I'm so worried and scared for my child and I no longer want the bf in mine or my child's life. I no longer feel safe, I no longer feel supported. I want to disappear, run away, raise this baby by myself so it never has to suffer through any of this. I'm lost. It's gotten so bad to the point I want to just lie and say the baby isn't his. My emotions run wild because the hatred I have for him grows everyday more and more. I'm tired of explaining, I'm tired of trying. Let's be real, people never change for others. Especially when the bf is positive he doesn't have a problem. I need to disappear.