\t (TW: MENTIONS OF DEAD NAMING AND ABORTION) Here are some fucked up things that I just realized. As a child, I was never fully educated on things like abortion and lgbtq+, because I was taught all the traditional things a young christian child is. One time, we were driving through the streets in my city, and there was a protest. It was pro-life, and my parents were clapping and waving at them. I thought it was weird at first, and I didn't like the signs.(Really rude things about people who get abortions.) But, since my parents liked it, I thought it was good. I didn't wave the first time, but I asked my parents to go back so I could wave. Thank god they didn't go back, I would have way more guilt then I do now. Another incident was when I got back from the zoo with my grandparents, and my parents were coming to pick me up, and when they go there, my parents started to talk about abortion with them. My grandpa said it was disgusting, and that once they "murdered" the child, they would FUCKING SELL THE BONES. I was 8. That shit scarred me. Now, onto the thing that pissed me off the MOST! When I was in middle school, I had this classmate. He started the school year identifying as female, but then came out as trans. They changed there name. Cole. In front of the class, they'd call him by his new name. But, whenever they were absent, they'd use there dead name. WHAT THE FUCK! That is not okay. Have some fucking respect. I never commented on it, because I didn't really know him that well, and didn't know the extent of how wrong it was. Then, halfway through the year, he left the school because he moved. Every single time after that, they'd refer to him as a her, and used his dead name. At a certain point, I got angry that they kept doing that, and wanted to tell him, but he was gone now. I just hope every bad thing I did in these stories can be forgiven by the trans community, and by people who have had abortions. I am so sorry I didn't speak up, and I am so sorry I thought it was okay to think like that for so long.