I am a 50 year old married male with two kids, college educated, and live in a big city. I’ve only slept with one woman in my entire life and didn’t have sex with anyone until I was 23. But, starting in 2016, I started having sex with men. I’ve had sex/meetups with 12 men, two of them multiple times. I’ve given head and have bottomed for men five times, three times bare with the same man. I like feeling vulnerable, sexy, wanted. I like being guided and controlled.I have now decided to stop. It’s not fair to my wife or me. I have to stop. I need to focus on my life, career, being a better person. I hav to do this, starting now.