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Masturbating to girls online

This has been playing on my conscience for a while. 3 years ago I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder with associated suicidal ideation which started from a crisis. I had chronic loneliness and developed addictive tendencies to pornography - I’d watch it from 7pm to 8.30am - just regular porn but would get more specific over time. I then found Chatroulette and Omegle video chat sites where I would frequently masturbate for hours on end there. At one point, I masturbated so long in my bathroom, the sweat humidified the air and my fingertips were wrinkled. I’d install a VPN so that when I was banned, I’d still be able to use the site. I’d masturbate to girls who also wanted to masturbate or flash me, but sometimes to girls who looked under 18, and sometimes it was without consent, so they’d either watch and join in or skip me. Is this illegal? Am I a paedophile? I no longer do it, and I never met any of them, and don’t have contact with any of them now. I’m trying to manage my feelings and trying to live healthier. Thanks.