Could I be fake without even trying to be fake? Are we all just two faced, but don’t know it? Maybe the person I’m deceiving the most is just…myself.It gets insufferable after a point, trying to be who everyone wants you to be. Expectations, morals, right and wrong, who really knows who you are? “He wants me to do this!”, “My mom expects to be like this.” But, what do I want to do? Who do I want to be? The worst part, you grow up believing and portraying a certain version of you. A facet of yourself you are fed to follow. Later on, with developing maturity comes new beliefs and new ideals, sometimes opposing the current version of yourself. Then comes the doubt and aversion to oneself, and voila! You start spiraling down the path of self-hate. But why? You didn’t do anything wrong. It’s a vicious path, and one that is difficult to escape from. Building self-esteem doesn’t happen overnight or through some 3-day corporate workshop. I would say it takes time, assurance and most importantly courage. It’s a very brave step to finally accept your truth and confidently stand by yourself. To speak up for what it is that you want to do and what you believe in is difficult but rewarding. If YOU feel happy and energized with your life, then don’t worry about anything else. Don’t be afraid of a ‘do-over’, trial and error is the only way to live, you shouldn’t be perfect. I have learnt over the course of time, that what everyone thinks about me doesn’t matter. It’s my life, so my choices. I needn’t be bound to anyone or anything. Hence, I urge you to be impulsive (with reason of course XD). Do what you want to do, live where you want to live and BE who YOU want to be. I rest my case. (jk ;) )

Could I be fake without even trying to be fake? Are we all just two faced, but don’t know it? Maybe the person I’m deceiving the most is just…myself.It gets insufferable after a point, trying to be who everyone wants you to be. Expectations, morals, right and wrong, who really knows who you are? “He wants me to do this!”, “My mom expects to be like this.” But, what do I want to do? Who do I want to be?The worst part, you grow up believing and portraying a certain version of you. A facet of yourself you are fed to follow. Later on, with developing maturity comes new beliefs and new ideals, sometimes opposing the current version of yourself. Then comes the doubt and aversion to oneself, and voila! You start spiraling down the path of self-hate. But why? You didn’t do anything wrong. It’s a vicious path, and one that is difficult to escape from. Building self-esteem doesn’t happen overnight or through some 3-day corporate workshop. I would say it takes time, assurance and most importantly courage. It’s a very brave step to finally accept your truth and confidently stand by yourself. To speak up for what it is that you want to do and what you believe in is difficult but rewarding. If YOU feel happy and energized with your life, then don’t worry about anything else. Don’t be afraid of a ‘do-over’, trial and error is the only way to live, you shouldn’t be perfect.I have learnt over the course of time, that what everyone thinks about me doesn’t matter. It’s my life, so my choices. I needn’t be bound to anyone or anything. Hence, I urge you to be impulsive (with reason of course XD). Do what you want to do, live where you want to live and BE who YOU want to be. I rest my case. (jk ;) )