i’m so sad .. today i had such a good day with my family (me mom & brother) we did a lot of fun stuff together .. i consider this a fun day bcuz it was finally without my moms boyfriend. ever since they started dating he’s been coming over everyday and spending the night everyday... is that normal? maybe it is and i’m just dumb. but i was super happy today but then my mom told me while we were watching a movie that we should go golfing tomorrow and me thinking it would be just us bcuz she said that he was working for the weekend .. i was wrong she is also including him. & she also said we should go to from San Francisco and of course i want to i’ve never been but she told me today it would be with him and i didn’t know that before so now it put me in a bad mood for the rest of the day (i am still) i don’t hate him but i want to spend time with my mom .. & brother i guess, without her bf. i then started to stop speaking bcuz i was upset and then later when the movie was over i cried and kept telling myself i don’t have reasons to live.... that sounds so dramatic to me.. i cant help it tho maybe i didn’t mean it and i’m just being stupid but yea i don’t really hate my life i have a good life but little things like that happen and i just hate it. i won’t end my life over this thought just me being dramatic .. i eventually stopped crying of course because my mom came to me but ofc she didn’t know it was bcuz of that i was crying. so i got hungry and they just make me so mad everything they do i can’t. (my mom & brother) and tomorrow is my last day before school starts again .. (it’s spring break & tomorrow is sunday.) so now i can’t do anything fun bcuz my mom bf here i don’t have a reason as to why i don’t want to hang out with him we’re just not close or anything & i don’t want to try and get close with him. so now i’m just hating everything. thx for reading \\(o-o)/.