I've had a shitty childhood and have struggled with mental health issues for as long as I can remember. I've taken the necessary steps to get professional help. Therapy, meds, hospitalization, selfhelp, the whole thing.
And I still want to die every day. I can't go on living like this but I don't know how to help myself anymore. I'm out of options to try. I'm terrified of being mentally ill for the rest of my life. That's not a life. Quality of life should matter and so far it's been really shitty. I have no support from family and no friends. No money for further therapy either. I'm stuck and I feel hopeless. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm afraid one day I'll give up and just end it.