Its my brother its all his fault.
Mum i love you so much and everything good i do in life is for you and only you. You work two jobs since dad ran away and im sorry sorry i love you so much please forgive me.
My brother outted me to my mum when wasnt ready, he keeps calling me retarded and autistic and now im starting to believe it, hes just so awful and im like this because i of him i cant fuckin stand up for myself im such a pussy i just want to kill myself and he wont take it seriously. So if he wont take it seriously ill jusg murder my mum and then myself because i dont i think of the thought of my mum crying over my suicide.