I'm feeling so upset from my dad now. its really a big problem when your own parent acts like a child, so I, the eldest daughter, has to understand him and be respectful. i know he is not helpful. i have SAT exams coming up and i really need to pull myself more together and i study everyday. i really don't want any help from him, i just want him to stop or at least lower the amount of work i have to do for him. not that i don't want to listen to him, i have to listen to him and do what he asks, but he's always asking for too much, and when i tell him i have work to do or that i'm running late and i need to study more, he rages and says i dont listen to him in anything and that i hate him and that i am a disrespectful kid. i swear i do not hate him and i always want the best for him, and just like i understand that he has too much work to do and that he is tired, i wish he'd understand me too. he always asks me to make him coffee or massage his head and back, not a big deal, but when asks for it multiple times... the most thing making me actually upset is that, because i'm the eldest, i have to almost do everything even when my siblings are completely free. i think sometimes my dad just wants to give me a hard time, for no reason. when i try to confront him, he stays upset for days, calls me rude, and hurts my feelings a lot, he even keeps on reminding through the day that he's mad. "don't forget that i'm mad from you" he says this for a couple of days until he forgets or i apologize. actually, when i confront, i do not think i am wrong, he makes feel like bad child. just now as i'm writing this my mom came up to me and scolded me for telling him i have studying. she said he has a hard day and he can't accept that i'm being disrespectful today. my sister is clearly free, shes playing, i am the busy one, why is it that he makes only me work. i cant be a perfect child. this is one thing, the bigger problem is, he scolds me too much, if i get a bad score or perform weaker in something. on my last SAT exam, he took to the exam center. during the way to the center and the way home, he just kept shouting at me for no reason. i couldn't enter the exam feeling good. and after the exam, he asked me how much i'd expect to get on the exam, i told him i expect to get maybe 1200 or 1300, and he went mad because he said it was very low, he said "kids who get these scores need to get killed"(he's only saying this to let me know that he's mad he doesn't abuse) and so when he got mad, i thought i had to change the response, but if i tell him my expectations are high, and later my scores turn out lower, he's gonna be even more mad, so i told him i can't really tell how much i'll get, yall.. this made him even madder and he started saying other kids would answer their fathers about it. he compares me so much to other kids, even himself. whenever i do something he says "i used to do this better" or "i wouldn't dare do that when i was younger." it hurts so much when he compares. i think it's hard for parents to admit that they're wrong. once you confront them about something they did, they quickly go out to tell why they're not wrong. i have to study right now but i couldn't because i was feeling sad and upset, so i just let it out here.