I dont have the option to leave, as I dont have a job yet. We broke up but he supports me financially while I can get on my feet. Im very thankfull for his financial support but I do suffer a lot because of the way he treats me. Im someone with chronic depression, anxiety, SA trauma, and other issues that make it really dificult to manage the way he is with me.We have always had problems and this instance is one of many many more. So please realize that isolated, this may seem like nothing, but its after years of getting put down, being told I do nothing right, Im stupid, my problems arent real or valid, a lot of sexism, etc...I took care of him when he got covid and almost died, then he took care of me when I had covid tho not that serious. I fell and broke my ankle (not bones, ligaments and stuff but still cant walk) so I depend on him to cook and bring me stuff cause I have no money, no friends in this country cause Im foreign, and no way to do things myself even jumping on 1 foot. (And if I try to do things myself in this state, he gets mad at me and stops me.He is always angry and snapping at me and treating me like a worthless pos. But lately he has been doing something that affects me even more: No matter how much I plead, he wont give me food at reasonable hours (like I said, wont let me get it myself either) and Im diabetic. Everyday I feel myself get shaky and weak and get a massive headache that lasts all day even after I finally eat, because I waited so much. Im close to passing out but he is on his computer looking at memes and telling me he is "bussy working" when I can see thats not the case. I get that he hates me, and Ive done a lot wrong, but diabetes is really serious and not eating in time could legit kill me and at best, ruins my whole fuckin day cause I feel like shit.I also have a lot of trauma from a period of my life where my family was in crisis and we had no money to eat. I have an ED too. So all food related topics are really intense for me.I just wanted to scream into the void cause I got nobody to talk to and no scape.