My ex partner.was seeing a girl for just over 5 years, lived with her and all sorts. was planning on proposing for her 30th, turns out she had been speaking to someone behind my back. i still havent recovered. i feel upset all the time. i did nothing bad, i hate myself. i hate my life. i had it all lined up. a house, big future with her. just because someone took a shine to my girl whilst she was with me, i lose her. i just want to die. i am sick of feeling the way i do. i hate everything about me. im ugly. no one likes me. feel like crap all the time. i was apparently bad for her “mental health” and i used my knowledge in the moment to try and help. i feel she destroyed me. i wish i was dead.