DAD:my dad is a sexist, racist, homophobic asshole. i’m a woman and i’m bisexual. he constantly makes rape/homophobic “jokes” even though i’ve told them they make me uncomfortable, even going as far as making these jokes in front of my lesbian/bisexual/gay friends. he constantly acts the victim and is verbally and mentally abusive. when i was young my biological dad wanted nothing to do with me so when he came into mine and my mums life i thought he was perfect. he got fired from his old job because he was racist and doesn’t see what he did wrong. he is literally the reason i have an eating disorder. his step sister accused him of rape and he always said that it wasn’t true and i believed him but looking back i see how he isso much like a predator, especially to my mum. he doesn’t respect their boundaries and when she tells him ‘no‘ he doesn’t respect her and as a sexual assault victim i can’t help but think that she was telling the truth and now she sees the man who raped her having this life. MUM:recently my mum and dad split and you would think it’s because of the years of abuse, or the constant threatening from my dad to her and her kids, but nope she’s split up with him because she’s cheating on him. my dads a bad person i can’t deny that but i just feel terrible not telling him but i don’t trust telling him because of what he’ll do. i’m my mums therapist. she constantly talks about her problems but when i want to talk about mine she turns it back on her. she didn’t even believe me when i told her about my sexual assault and that hurt me so much because growing up she was my best friend and now she’s like a stranger. it’s like she’s giving up being mum too and most of the time it’s me making sure she’s eaten and drunk enough, or me tucking her in at night. she said the other day that i look at her with such hatred in my eyes especially lately. i don’t hate her she’s my mum. however when you’re constantly being manipulated and when she prefers my brother so much more it hurts. she constantly plays victim and when i was 11 years old sobbing on the bathroom floor because i tried to OD she made it all about herself and i had to make her feel better. BROTHER:my little brother has autism, adhd, ocd, tourette’s (i have no idea how to spell it so apologies in advance) and about 30 other million things. because of this my mum took a bunch of classes to make life easier for him. wanna know what she did when i got diagnosed with depression, anxiety and an eating disorder? she done nothing but make me feel bad for it. i couldn’t go to school and haven’t for years, because of my sexual assault and anxiety etc, and she made mefeel bad about it because she can get in trouble which i get but when my brother wants a day off he can get it. i hate my brother. and i hate that i hate him because it’s not his fault. not really. he just got everything i wanted. mum and dad love him, i assume it’s because he’s biologically dads, he never gets punished so he’s misbehaved yet they act shocked at this fact. it’s only gotten worse since his diagnosis. i’m not saying dads not horrible to him because he is, especially lately as i’ve been fighting back against him. it’s just times like when they’re watching tv together and i can hear them laughing my heart breaks. my brother is a people pleaser so he’s turning into my dad and i hate it.the worst thing of all is that i am my parents. i’m manipulative and toxic. i’m trying really hard not to be but i just can’t help it. it’s like a second nature.