i hate my father. he's dead to me. he's pathetic. i never want to see his face again. i need someone to talk to but i have no one, that's why i'm here. he's abusive. he's a horrible father. he's a horrible husband. he's a horrible person. he disgusts me. i have never hated anyone more in my life than i do him. he makes me want to leave this place. i want to go far away, and never see him again. i never want to hear his voice again. he's the reason my family isn't happy. he's the reason my mum isn't happy. he's the reason i'm not happy. i wish he would leave. i long for the day he finally storms out and doesn't return. i don't want him in my life. he will never meet my children. i could never bring him into their lives. he won't be there when i graduate. he won't walk me down the isle. i just want to be happy.