I am the 2nd child of my mother, the 2nd daughter but I am the first child of my father and his only daughter.My brother was born 3 and 1/2 years after me but when I was younger I was my dad's everything, I was the princess and a total daddy's girlMy dad grew up with a really traumatic childhood. He was abused in every way a person could be including sexual abuse by a neighbor which was never disclosed. His mother wasn't really his mother and for this reason he was treated differently than his brother who actually was his mother's son. When my parents got married my mother had an infant daughter from a previous relationship who my father raised as his own until I came along at this time he wanted nothing to do with my sister and everything to do with me because I was biologically his.This was a huge reason(not the only one) that my parents divorced. My father was controlling and verbal abusive to my mother and at times it did get physical on both sides. When I was 5 and my brother was 2 it came out that my dad had molested my brother and he spent time in prison for 11 years. Everyone in the family turned their back on my dad including my sister who had her own issues and reasons for wanting to be rid of him. I never turned my back on him. I understood being molested that happened to me not by my father but by a babysitter when I was 4 for about a year. I know that it is wrong but I knew that my dad needed to be loved and there is a difference between loving the other father you have and defending his actions which I don't defend of condone what happened it was wrong and he deserved to get punished but he also got the help that he needed that he never got after all the trauma he suffered.I wrote him letters while he was locked up, I kept in contact when no one else did. Present day my brother is now 28 and I am 31 and we both live with my dad. The sad thing is my dad doesn't treat me like he treats my brother, my brother can do no wrong. My dad let's him get away with everything. When he comes home from work he comes to talk to my brother but when I want to talk to my dad he acts like I am annoying him. He acts like he doesn't want me around but he can't get enough of my brother. When he says we can't do things like "have animals in the house" I had to give up my beloved dog but my brother brought in three cats with him that tear up brand new furniture. He's okay with my brother driving his truck and borrowing his things but he gets upset if I do those things.He has apologized to my brother for all the things he has done but he forgets that although he didn't do the same things to me he hurt me as a child by abandoning me for being gone all those years. He left when I was 6 and came back when I was grown I was 17 almost 18. He served time twice before that and always promised he would never go back well he always lied. He disappointed me, he embarrassed me my friends would stop coming around when they learned the truth about him. I don't think I can blame anyone for how they feel.My brother is like the golden boy, and it leaves me feeling empty. I have tried to point these things to him, and he says that this isn't the way it is but it is the way it is. I have a feeling that when my dad dies he will leave everything to my brother and though I don't care about the stuff that would make me feel like he doesn't see that he has a daughter and son just a son. It hurts me I feel lonely and really unloved.