my first time doing this.. im doing this with my guy best friend. even tho that I have a boyfriend. three of us were chilhood bestfriends until last 2 months, before my boyfriend ask me out. but I don’t have the same feelings as him. I crush on my guy bestie.. we had same kind of feelings toward each other. it kind of mess up if my boyfriend know that i lose my virgin for his best friend (that is my crush) am I cheating?