I screwed crap up. I try to find this non-existent middle ground between God and the world (by the world I mean my struggle with homosexuality).I had a secret girlfriend my parents found out. Idk what to do. They weren’t supportive but they weren’t mean about it. The only thing is they won’t let me see her..ive been randomly crying on and off and I put on this smile and pretend like I’m 𝙤𝙠.Im done pretending you know. It sucks being in that non-existent void between the world and God. As much as I try to make that middle ground exist there is none.theres Godorthe world.I want both.but I can’t have them both..so I’ve been walking down the worlds path.its 𝙣𝙤𝙩 fun.Every-time I try to embrace myself as Bi there’s 𝙂𝙤𝙙. Every time I try to embrace myself as straight there’s 𝙜𝙞𝙧𝙡𝙨. why can’t that middle ground just exist..I want to see my girlfriend so badly but my parents are keeping me away from her...idk what to do honestly.