my husband is not at all in love with me. he just need my financial support and and always blame or find excuses for his mistakes. he want me to work and earn more and meet all expectations. he dont try and always complain of not earning well and its all because of me . i have no other relationships and never had love affairs previously , which is again a pain point that my entire life i wasted by marrying to the wrong person. he show all love and care to everyone except me . we have a kid but he doesn't bother about the future of kid also . i have many admirers at my office and outside and none i pay any attention .but the way he suspect me, i feel like fucking all strangers and cheat him . i regret for saying NO to many ppl and for not enjoying my life when i was young and for not falling in love to know the joy of being loved by someone. i have no sex life too . i am so confused and anxiety issues as well.