So my family doesn't care about my mental wellbeing because where I live, depression is taboo. I have been suffering from depression for 3 years and I have extreme anxiety. I don't know how long I can hang on without any help. I got bullied in school for my entire life. And now there is a pandemic, so I don't have to go to school but my ''sister'' (who is my home bully) is now making my life worse. I really wanna scream bitch to this ''sister'' of mine. I realized that when I grow up, I won't have any good memories/childhood to look back. My mom also doesn't help me to find a therapist. She thinks I am just a kid (I am 15) so I am probably bluffing. She doesn't even tries to understand my mental health. If I could only commit suicide, but my anxiety rushes in. I am trapped with this mental torment. My family will only love me when I am dead. So please if any of you people can suggest me things that will guarantee my death (if possible painless death as well). Does jumping of a 6 floor building will guarantee my death? Please answer this question.