I am a 30 years old male and i am virgin what should I do. Problem is not as simple as it looks. I am educated but not rich not even blong to a middle class family. I was in love with a girl 10 years before when i was 20 but because of my financial status that relationship didn't work we dated but i didn't go for sex . This doesn't end here my problem became worse i fall sick and my crucial time was wasted without any reason i lost my career, i was in love with her still i could not forget her i compromised my life started doing a small job with very less money and living my life with a small pain in my heart with time i accepted that i am very unlucky very very unlucky i never got love nor sex.Things doesn't end here again i gave 5 years of my life preparation of Government job but never got successful. 7 years later The girl i dated back in 2011 came surprisingly finding me on Instagram giving me a follow request whom i have never seen for years i got shocked i still love her but why she messaged me. I started seeing dreams that i got my love back n i am so lucky now my financial position is little under my control i can bear some expenses but that was not the plan of God.She said be my friend only i dont have any love left she had sex with 3 different boys she dated after me now she is done. But i was still a chutia in love with that girl she used me for 3 more years with money chats time pass and his personal work now she left saying that i love u but i cannot be in relationship with u. I also cannot marry u boz u are not earning much and ur family background is also not high grade.I m still i virginI m not ugly or look insane or awkwardI m six feet tall hadsome but now i m depressed completely she was the only girl i loved or datedWhat should I do?Should i go with a prostitute and have a paid sexBut i don't like this boz this is a thing that is not morally correctI think it is a sin. My friends make fun of me that u r still single n virgin and they all say this in a very bad way that i cannot explain here .I started listening to all babaas on YouTube for peace n knowledge on topics like aatma soul search wisdom and tyag next birth many more but the truth i cannot digest all that lie or believe in all that because i observe that 100 babas 100 different verdicts sayingNot even all religious books say same they also make confusionWhat to doIs suicide is a good option?