6 months ago
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my life I guess :)

I don’t even know where to start. I’ve never been good with words so for now I’m just going to say that for these past few months I feel like I’m going insane. everything I do makes me overthink, I panic a lot and I never know how to handle things or my emotions. I’m tired, physically and mentally and I don’t know what to do. I hate talking to people about how I feel so I’m venting on this platform. I always thought I was strong, strong enough to defend myself and others but at this point I feel week. sensitive. every moment someone I know makes a mistake, I automatically judge them for what they did, maybe it’s because of my extreme lack of self confidence. I never wanted to admit that I might have depression although I’ve felt this way for four years of my life until now, I’ve never once talked to someone about the way I feel. my mother decide I should see a counselor/therapist about a year ago when I self harmed but I hated being there, talking about my life with a stranger, and I convinced my mom to take me out of counseling. although I haven’t self harmed since then, I still feel impulsive and destructive every day of my life. I’m just waiting for the day when I can’t take it anymore and my emotions get the best of me. I feel pathetic. and I know I’m not the only one that does, I mean we’re all on this platform for a reason, right?