hey I know im probably being petty but I feal like my life is shit and I cant talk to anyone becuse eavryon is constantly mad at me my mum sisters and brother the only person who dosent get mad or ignore me for no reson is my dad but I dont get to see or talk to him much becuse he works away from home the only times I see him is weekends and holidays but for the rest of the week my mum is more intrested in her phone then me and if i try to speck to her she shouts at me for being rude and says she will smash my head in my sister just threatens me and my other sister attacks me all the time and my brother is a drug dealer so eavry time i see him its do you want weed sell weed form me and if i do the slightest thing wrong he threats to kill me btw im the youngest sibling any way if something needs to be done like manual work im allways the one doing it like my brother has 2 dogs and I am the one that has to pick its poo up and i dont even live with him like when i was 9 he gave me a machete and told me to use it if someone comes in the house and becus i called my mum sceard becus he just left me on my own my mum told me off for causing shit and my brother kiked the shit out of me but im 15 rn and he is 18 and im 6'3 and he is 5'8 so now he pulls a gun on me noe a michety/knives becuse he know i can over power him now tried to stab me she would kik bite punch slap pinch she would hit me in the ball when I would sleep she tried to set me on fier told me if she drinks she will cheat on me and won't mean it on new-year she cheted on me with her best frend and my only freand at the time and she would tell me im a shit bf becuse if she was depressed or having an episode I tell he I cant leave my house at 3 in the morning ir ill get batterd and she was like so im more important and ssy my frend was better then me becuse he would leave at 3 all my frend would hat me becuse they think im ignoring them becuse im partly deaf and thay would wisper to me it would sound like and in nosy classes it was the worst and almost all my friends have fell out with me becuse i apparently ignore them and they know im mostly deaf and if i want to do something im questiond why im doing it all the time like I want to lose weight becuse im fat I waight 280lbs but I dont look it becuse im 6'3 tall and when j say I want to lose weight I get told I dont need to lose waight the fat will turn to muscle and there is no need for me to eaxisise but I get shouted at for not exisizing and in result of this I stay in my room almost all the time and when i go sit with my family im question on why im sitting with them and i dont ever sit with them or if i give anyone in my family a complement im a creep or i want something according to eavryone I know i annoy eavryone or i just have a face thay want to punch and i apparently drive eavryone to want to kill meBut its getting to a point ill kill my brother or ill kill a few pepoul in my family or im just going to kill myself idk but eavry day I have the feeling of killing my self and I have attempted it a few times but next time it won't be an attempt....I am 15 atm my brother is 18 my sister is 23 and my other sister is 27