Hi I'm here to tell you my life story. It started when I was born, of course. Back then my life was pretty normal. Then when I was about 6, I realized how much my parents fought. They would yell at each other endlessly and called each other names. They never slept on the same bed, but I didn't have the biggest house so my dad would usually end up on the couch. They both had jobs but we were still financially struggling. My parents never told me but I figured it out as time went on. I didn't have too much friends growing up, so I guess you could call me a loner. I never wanted to talk to people because I would get anxious and scared, or I had social anxiety. The school I went to kindergarten through 3rd grade was very closed in and there were a lot of rich kids. I never fit in, but I managed to make one or two friends. My mom was a teacher and when she got a new job, I got to transfer to that school too. This school however, was not closed in with rich kids. There were fights and kids with rough backgrounds. The first day of school, every one new each other so I was kinda nervous. But as time went on, I made lots of friends. My social anxiety started to fade away. The first friend I made, let's call her Chloe, was my number one bff. We were always partners and we were always talking together. Then, I made a another friend, let's call her Kelly. Me and Kelly weren't the best match, but Kelly, Chloe and I all became besties. But Kelly and Chloe got really close, closer than I was with either of them. They would hang out without me and when it was a partnership of 2, they would always be together. I got jealous of that. There was another girl, lets call her Sarah. Now Sarah really liked Chloe, she wanted to be friends with Chloe and no one else being friends with her. At the time I didn't know what she was planning when she became friends with me and Kelly. She joined our friend group, along with another girl let's call her Emily. Emily and Chloe have known each other a long time and Emily was good friends with Sarah. So Sarah and Chloe and Emily became a the threesome that me, Kelly, and Chloe were. Then Sarah started to talk trash about me. Telling her new friend group how she hated me and I was ugly blah blah. Emily laughed at it, but Chloe was always quiet. Me and Chloe stopped talking and it was just me and Kelly. My mom and Chloe's mom were friends, and her mom started telling my mom how Chloe was sad being alone and didn't know why I stopped talking to her. My mom started to get mad at me for ghosting her and she forced me to apologise. So I did, and Chloe and me were friends. We became our regular friend group and everything was ok. Then 5th grade came and I wasn't in the same class as Chloe or Kelly. But I was with Sarah. She tried being nice to me so I was fake nice back, not wanting any drama. I made a bunch of new friends from that class, and they were all friends with Sarah. I was pretty popular and Sarah was not so she kept trying to be nice to me. I could see through her though. I never talked to her or anything. My parents then got divorced but the cost of the divorce papers were a lot. Luckily I didn't have to go to the court, but they already had separated houses. They got boyfriends and girlfriends so quickly it was kinda weird for me. Time passed and before you know it, 5th grade was over. I kept in contact with Kelly and Chloe but I was sad when I realized that Chloe wasn't going to the same middle school as me and Kelly. Summer break past and it was August. I tried using the group chat to ask if we could all go out, and they both left me on read. Kelly, though, told me that Chloe and her got into a huge fight and weren't on speaking terms. I tried to get them to talk back with each other but it was no use. School started and Kelly made friends just like that. It was as though she had known everyone forever. Of course, I got jealous but I didn't say anything. I only had two periods with Kelly, and I wasn't making friends in my other classes. I started to feel lonely because Kelly always was talking to her other friends leaving me friendless. One day, me and Kelly were talking, and I saw a notification on her phone. It was Chloe. I asked about it to Kelly and she said that they made up. I used the group chat again, but no one responded, again. Then as loyal as Kelly was, she told me all the secrets that Chloe told her, about how she wasn't sure if she was Lesbian or Bi and about her crushes and how she cusses. I was feeling really left out at that point so Kelly said she would text Chloe asking if she told me. Chloe didn't respond and my anxiety grew. What if she was bored of me? Did I do something wrong? Does she hate me? But when Kelly told me, me and Chloe were getting distant. I always told her gm and gn and she never responded. I tried asking her if she wanted to hang but she was always busy. Soon she just stopped texting me. I got really sad thinking she didn't like me anymore. I never forget her, she was my first best friend. But friend don't last forever do they. I made few friends but it seemed they were all closer with Kelly than me. I got lonely. I felt like I had nobody. I didn't want to tell Kelly in gear of losing her, but I soon realized how clingy I was. I didn't know if I should stop being so fast to respond, not try to always be talking to her, then she accused me of not talking to me. I apologized and became my clingy self again but she looked like she was annoyed about it. Fast forward to now, I talk to like 2 people every day, Kelly is one of them. My friends joke with me asking if I'm depressed because I always wear dark clothes and I'm the "idc" friend, but to real, I'm pretty sure i am. Life feels meaningless without a goal or anything. I'm usually known as the quiet kid and I am just bored of life. If you got this far, good job, I hope you have a great day.