so... there's this boy that i started talking to a while ago. we fell in love. or at least i did. and i still am. it's been about 3-4 months since we had a real conversation asking each other how ones day was and or really asking how we are. i miss him so much but i know he doesn't miss me. just the other day i tried getting his attention, but it didn't work. i wanted him to remember that i was there or that i was special or something. i'm not saying i'm special at all lol, but when he talked to me, i felt like i was. in all honesty, we would never have worked out. we knew this. but really only because we live many, many states away. and honestly, i want to hate him for forgetting me so easily....but whenever i hear a sad or love song i think of him. or whenever i scroll through tiktok and see manifestation things, i claim them for us. or initial videos, i look for ours to be together. maybe that's crazy, but i just don't know. i need someone to tell me if i'm crazy or in love. because right now, i don't see the difference. i've never been in love before until now. or maybe i still haven't.