I’ve been lying to everyone to make myself feel better. I suffer from depression and bpd. It hurts so much. And whenever I get a job I always leave. And I dont ever have the courage to quit. I always no call no show and I come up with an excuse to tell my friends and family. I have one job I’m at right now which is only two days a week 14 hour shifts and I feel great. But my other job wanted me to come back after COVID and I panicked and had a breakdown and no call no showed. This is now the 4th place I’ve done this to. Idk how to stop or to come clean.